So, I did the lumpectomy and lower axillary clearance - up and about quickly even back to a very supportive workplace.  Benefit of chemo less than risks so not even able to say I’m suffering that.  But, after taking Anastrozole for just a week I have constant back pain, miserable mood just sitting here, don’t want to do anything or see anybody in case cry.  I’m strong, not a crier, don’t suffer depression and don’t want to.  Ten years of this?  Soon radiotherapy and the bone infusion.  This thing was 11mm and my life has become ruled by IT.  I think I’ve been in denial about IT and looked, unknowingly I was doing it, like having my appendix out.  Usually I handle problems by running away from them.  I can’t even do that because IT puts paid to that.  According to lifestyle I should be such low risk.  But IT decided to set up home in my left breast.  I was doing quite well before Anastrozole I thought - is it the tablet does anybody think or is it the true me coming out?

sorry to be a miserable wet rag xxxx