Refusing chemo

i have decided to refuse chemo, I think I have been in denial about my liver cancer with unknown primary. I am now coming to terms with it and realise I have all the symptoms, I have posted on here before but had only one reply, there must be more cancer sufferers who have refused the treatment. I would be very interested to hear their view on it and how they got on. I was diagnosed a year ago, over the last year I have had all the different scans and two liver biopsies as they could not find the primary. What I don’t understand is why the Specialists do not give you any hope, they seem to be lacking in compassion (unless it’s just mine), after my appointments I come out in tears and get so down, now I dread going to see him! As I live on an Island we only have the one consultant.