I was diagnosed with DCIS High, I had a surgery, but they were unable to get a clear margin. Therefore back for more surgery a few weeks later, still no clear margin.

I was shocked and my consultant was upset for me. I then had a choice, full mastectomy or full mastectomy and reconstruction. Using a silicon breast implant. Given all reasons why or why it may not be stressful to consider. I felt toren.

Then my consultant gives me further option that I could get a Deip Flap Reconstruction. ( This is using other parts of my body to use for the reconstruction  less likely of rejection). 

Although my family and consultants where pushing me to go that way, I felt worried, 10 hour operation, high risks involved. 3 to 6 months recovery. 

Finally both consultant got together and the decision was made to have it done, subject to test etc too see if I was eligible for that surgery. Donor arteries blood flow etc etc.

Results back, got the all clear to have it. I was never so scared of anything in my life with such high risk factors.

Booked in hospital day before ( the worst filthy hospital in all my life and staff were so rude and no very caring).

Came of the operation in a bad way, I was totally traumatised and still am 7 months in. Recovery slow, I am in pain 24/7. My walking is effected badly. I feel I have been kicked between my legs. Am weak and have no quality of live at all. I have aged 10 years over night.

Got my results after the operation, to be told I also had a secondary grade 2 invasive cancer in the same breast as the DCIS High.

My breast now has 3 lumps, consultant doesn't want to know now. So back to my orginal consultant. Waiting on a ultra sound scan, its been 2 weeks now. 

I need to find out whats happening. I have a bad gut feeling something is wrong.

I would never ever recommend that surgery to anyone. Although its saved my life, my life it has left me with a bad disability.

My journey has not been a walk in the park. I am on tablets for 5 years. My yearly review is coming up next month, am scared, frighten of the out come.