Diagnosed with stage 3 cancer in Jan , partner lives 100 miles away and has never apart from one appt joined me  for any hospital appt , went to every chemo appt on my own. Had laproscopy friday, went to the hospital alone  and I am home alone recovering . 

Been offered the lifeline of surgerey ( removal of osephagus and full removal of stomach ) in a few weeks which could save my life, without surgery I am told its months but I just dont know how I will cope recovering at home alone. The surgery is huge and has a long recovery period, which I face alone . 

Today I told my partner its over, is it common for relationships to fall apart when one partner has this terrible disease ?

I feel I cant continue to have a relationship that only works when I am well, and doesnt work when I am sick. 

So very sad, I do have family but I am here alone recovering from surgery and even thinking about not going through with surgery . I am 48yrs old with a grown up child who works away.

People just see me getting on with it whilst I appear all good , but in reality im falling apart.

I just dont know what to do , any help or advice out there ?