hi. my name is emily. im writting this as im in shock to be honest. im 15 years of age and found out 12 weeks ago i have lung cancer. i have not told anyone apart from 3 people. i need support, but im scared to confront anyone. My family and friends are my biggest concern. Not me. Them. We have already lost 2 family members to Cancer and.. im next. I dont even want to imgaine the pain it will cause them. i want to go and hug my parents, my family,friends, siblings, etc and just let it out. Im too young to go. All my years of studying, looking at houses, looking at jobs etc was a waste as i dont have long left. im just basically counting down the days till i die, and thats a fact. i wake up everyday just hoping i can surive at least another 24 hours.Everytime i go to tell someone i just get too scared. i cry everyday, every night, every hour, every minute. ive never had the best relation ship with my family, especially my mum. She abused me, shouted at me, swore. And i think to tell her the news will break her, and make her feel as if she is a terrible mum, when in fact shes not, she had problems. I think it will make her feel as if she failed to raise me and now i have cancer, there isnt much time to try and mend our relationship. Please. Someone. Help me.
-Emily
