Vent day : ((

Well just waiting for my son to come out of his tests at hosp ... got so many things going on in my family at the mo ... lost cousin to lung cancer in Dec, untie just starting her breast cancer journey... sister's Alzheimer's getting really bad, last visit yesterday, she just sat there watching cartoons .... now my baby (36) who's diabetic, getting tests down his throat and back passage, and he's seeing lights in his eye ...

Know we have to wait for results, but this is like the straw that broke the camel's back ... it was easier when l went through my mastectomy, l could cope with that ... can't talk to family as they are all coping with their probs ... so sitting here waiting to know he's gonna be o.k ... want to scream,  no more ... just give us a break for awhile ... I'll come back tomoz and take life on and be strong again as l tell others , cancer wants us to break ... so I'll just have my rant at it and go back to hold on to this rollercoaster and put two fingers up to it again ... think he's gonna brake me... not with you lot here, it's  not ... Chrissie xx 

  • Hi there sophie

    after going through throat cancer treatment I had a toungue biopsy and ulcer .. a very painful time

    i wrote a blog all through my treatment and have written a page on ulcer remedies

    i hope its of some help

    gammaraygary.wordpress.com/.../

    vatch

  • Thank you Brian ... Just update ... Feel lots better to day ... Back on our rollercoaster again ... Xx thank you VATCH For info for Sofie .. if anyone else reads this who has any more advice for her on how to help her mouth ulsers please go on teenager who wants to be a teenager ... She's so lovely and is finding it a bit hard going at the mo ...

    Big hug to you all ... Especially rilleyroo , who brightens my day ... You wonderful people you ... Chrisie xx

  • Thankyou Vatch I will have a look it now!
  • Hi Chriss, 

    Glad you are feeling better. It not like you to feel low for long

    Take care and have a good weekend, Brian

  • Thank you Brian... just so much happening health wise, to so many family members, and my son having tests and being on my own that morning, I had a mini meltdown ... but l knew you lot here, were the best .. and feel I sort of needed to have that, as maybe I'd been too strong for too long ...

    But it helped me, like l say to others, if you need to let it all out, go with it, but after get back on the rollercoaster and hold on tight.. so now I know it works ...

    I'm sitting here with my little Emily,  got her for the weekend, and done nothing but laugh ... so without you lot and that saying someone wrote on my thread, about whispering in the devil's ear ... that he catches you on a low and whispers in your ear "you are not strong enough to weather the storm" and when you bounce back, I whisper in his ear "l am the storm"  well that really struck a cord ... it would be a good saying on one of your quotes threads ... l don't know who 888 is, but I'd love to give them a hug ...

    Together on here, we can sure give cancer a run for his money ... big hug to you too Brian... on and up ...Chrissie

  • Chris

    glad to see that we are helping you deal and get through this process .... we have all been there

    when going through testing and even at initial diagnosis it’s the worry and the fear of the unknown that does us in

    its easy for me to say but I do talk from experience as when I was first diagnosed with cancer but then had to have further test to define the extent of it .... in those further testing weeks my wife and I got to the stage of thoughts on my funeral ... we had even chosen the songs ..... 

    we were so stressed and so mentally tired during this period, but funnily enough we had never slept so well ... strange one that

    what we did find though, was that distraction is a great tool.

    its important to try and get on with life during this phase .... I took my dogs for a load of walks, we went to the pictures and just did things together that distracted us from what was obviously going on

    your little Emily appears to be a great means to do that. 

    The only Other thing I would say is that testing takes time so don’t expect all the answers in one go .... 

    lets us know how you all get on

    vatch

     

  • Hi catch... thank you for reply , and yes I'm really good at the tests and im used to waiting  ; )) l am so relaxed and cool , for me ... l only lost it totally coz it was my baby (36) coz he's had so much to take on after diabetic diagnosis at just 14 ... he never complained once ... and he has been my rock when l was going through tests and was there for 2 days with my mastectomy... even came back to hospital at 3 a.m in morning , coz I had a bad bleed inside scar and was rushed back to theatre,  not leaving my side ...

    He's the kindest funniest son I could have wished for ( Emily's daddy) so everything else I could cope with , but the thought of him going through this right now, with so many other family members health probs was just too much ... but thanks to all of you, next day I was back on track ... makes me remember when he had his first tooth out, i was bawling like a baby then too ... it's a mummy thing lol xx 

    Thanks again vatch... sending you and yours caring thoughts .. love your pic by the way, is it a dobby ... my eldest lad had one years ago ... we called him the B F G the gentlest dog I ever knew .. miss him so much ... xx

  • Just seen this Chris.

    You've offered so much help to others, I just wanted to send you a virtual hug and tell you how strong you are! The way you come across just excudes it.

    Onwards and upwards and crossing everything for you.

    Emily xx

  • Hi Emily... was wondering how you were doing ... how's the hair coming on... it's a little like my boob , you do get used to it, and your lucky as you look so amazing, I bet it makes it easier ...  ; )) my little EmilyS still asking me, when it's going to grow back... she's worried if I have a baby, l won't be able to feed it ... at 63, that would be one hell of an event .. lol  what a coincidence she known at school with exactly how you write yours ... 

    Thank you for the lovely compliment, I think it's because of my wonderful family ... with cystic fibrosis to Parkinson's, one little cousin (8) had lukimia (Sorry bout spelling) last one is a mummy now and doing good ... and cant miss my lovely big sis, with dementia... and loads more ... but everyone of them never complained and always had a smile and a cheery word ... so I had great teachers in life ... and my mum would help any one ... how lucky was l .... 

    So hunny not seen an update from you... would love to know how your journey is going ... has it been tough on the chemo side ... hope it's only mild ... but you kick it's *** ... thank you again ... but your one tough cookie too ... always here for good days and hard ones ... bless ya xx

  • Just little update... early reports from hosp (I know that's super quick but he's got work private insurance, (what a difference in wait that is ))  show nothing sinister... woo hoo... my mum's deffinatly looking over my baby ... ; ))))

    Thank you everyone ... never known such a great bunch ..... xx