Hi Shirley. Sorry to hear of your news. I am now post radiotherapy - 6 months ago and have been through emotions like a rollercoaster worse than before. I have now realised i dont think I've fully accepted what I've been through. I think the initial shock of diagnosis to end of treatment one is strong because we're doing something to battle it all. I was strong throughout but don't feel it now. I am attending support group by Macmillan and made an appt with a counsellor. Please talk to someone to 'nip it in the bud ' as I feel worse now physically and emotionally. My expectations of where I had planned to be even 4 months after treatment have not been met and that makes it very hard. I think if I'd admitted to myself as you have at this stage I'd be in a better place. Take it easy, be fair to yourself and please speak to someone who can help.

If you go onto Macmillans website hopefully you'll find a support group or counsellor you can talk to face to face. I prefer face to face as well. I hope you do find someone and feel better soon. This is tough, really tough but we can do this!

I really do hope it gets better and we become the people we were. I am being pushed through menopause due to tamoxifen so it multiplies these feelings. It's not easy and not everyone reacts the same so they dont tell you. I've been trying to find a job as well which i haven't been successful which is also getting me down. My daughter tells me its not time and there's something new hurting or wrong every week which also puts me one step ahead and 2 back. We must soldier in and I am looking forward to the support group. No one really understands how we feel - only those that go thru this stupid journey knows. We're all here in this together - keep talking. Take it easy.xx