I'll provide the oats for t'hoss!

How are you finding being at work? I am pig headed too and have a real problem accepting what i have/had. I got told by my consultant that I have to accept what i have and go slow when I said that surely by now I should be much more improved. They painted a very optimistic pic when I went for my pre-surgery appointments . Still i am where i am and it is what it is. At least my nails look great!

I am brave and blase in front of others but have she'd many a tear these past couple of months. Thank God for this site.

Being at work has been the normal for me, getting back to it albeit on slightly reduced hours initally, was my aim. My consultants haven't been much use to be honest. They only seem to look at what is happening now whereas I'm planning a future for me where I can put cancer on the sidelines and start to enjoy life again. I don't think I'll ever put it behind me and that's not necessarily a bad thing; I guess vigilance is the key when dealing with this, I don't want it coming back certainly. 

I agree with you that there is what feels to be a lack of honesty at times when going through treatment and what you can expect at the end of it. I found I could deal with the physical side a lot easier than the emotional and still struggle at times with it.  

Getting my nails done on Monday!

Glad to hear you're getting your nails done! I also am trying desperately to put it on sidelines but my body isn't cooperating with me! Very admirable what you've done by going back so quickly. Keep going! 

Think i was better during rad treatment than I have been over last month! Just keep putting E45 on and rest. My tastes changed in first week of treatment and remained. It'll be ok - we got this!

Hmmm... was going to cook some food up in advance so when I got tired I could just drag a meal out if the freezer, no one mentioned taste changing, certainly. Is there any point I ask myself?

Something else 'they' don't tell you. 

Like i said everyone reacts differently.  I went off meat and fish which really isn't a bad thing. See how it goes. I won't lie - it has really weakened me but I have an issue with slowing down, listening to my body and accepting my situation. I have changed but feel like "giving it time" is what we run out of (time). Do what you feel is right. Here if you wanna talk every single day before, during or after treatment. Take it easy.x

Thank you. Feels like swimming in custard right now. 

Morning ladies

You r heading into the unknown(yet again) with yr RT [@rileyroo]‍ - once the wait is over hopefully you will begin to feel better and feel there is light at the end of the tunnel for u. I think my taste has already changed. I tend to not fancy chocolate (I used t eat a lot). I am craving juicy things like fruit. Mind u since day 2 post op been out for food every day so not cooked anything lol. 

[@Jbains]‍ well I get more why u are feeling the way u are now. Diagnosis and job you were doing down graded and a restructure then redundancy. Your entire life has changed no wonder you are feeling it trying to get back to normal. In 10 yrs I went through 4 restructures - had to apply for my job each time - slotted in 3 times but 1 time more people than jobs so interviewed( I got the job). Tbh the last one was just before my early retirement I was hoping for redundancy but alas(for me) not t b. I had enough so I’m glad I am out of it. I was asked to apply to be on the associates list when I left  ( posh name for bank lol) I declined. Loving the freedom ( but it’s not for everyone). Personally if I was looking for a job I would wait till after Christmas it’s not long now and I would embrace the family time ( but that’s me :-). 

Have a great day ladies 

keep well in mind and body

Sandra x

Morning ladies

You r heading into the unknown(yet again) with yr RT [@rileyroo]‍ - once the wait is over hopefully you will begin to feel better and feel there is light at the end of the tunnel for u. I think my taste has already changed. I tend to not fancy chocolate (I used t eat a lot). I am craving juicy things like fruit. Mind u since day 2 post op been out for food every day so not cooked anything lol. 

[@Jbains]‍ well I get more why u are feeling the way u are now. Diagnosis and job you were doing down graded and a restructure then redundancy. Your entire life has changed no wonder you are feeling it trying to get back to normal. In 10 yrs I went through 4 restructures - had to apply for my job each time - slotted in 3 times but 1 time more people than jobs so interviewed( I got the job). Tbh the last one was just before my early retirement I was hoping for redundancy but alas(for me) not t b. I had enough so I’m glad I am out of it. I was asked to apply to be on the associates list when I left  ( posh name for bank lol) I declined. Loving the freedom ( but it’s not for everyone). Personally if I was looking for a job I would wait till after Christmas it’s not long now and I would embrace the family time ( but that’s me :-). 

Have a great day ladies 

keep well in mind and body

Sandra x

Well I like shopping but not that kind ;-) gotta b done tho. Hope u get some you time before it all kicks off. 

I was out yesterday from 7:30 am nd didn’t get home till 9:00pm (busy doing nothing lol). Anywho had a duvet day today just lay around nd read think needed a battery recharge.

Mind checked my watch stats ( it’s like a fit bit) nd for last 4 day’s been hitting all my targets (10 thousands steps, 12 hrs stand and 45 mins exercise) yeah - but not today lol. 

I took my dressings off yesterday nd was ok. Got what looks like a couple of steri strips on nd didn’t know if supposed to take them off so left them. Boob is sticky where the dressing have been nd won’t seem t wash off oh well I’ll keep trying. 

Onwards and upwards as they say

take care

Sandra x

Hi ladies

sorry quick question- I rang dn to ask if I should remove steri strips as well as dressings - still not heard from her. Did you leave yours on or remove them. TBH at hosp on Monday so if push comes t shove can just leave and ask at appointment 

ta muchly x

Cheers ladies

I’ll see how it goes over weekend. They have been kept dry so are stuck solid. Hopefully they will loosen up a bit in shower. They actually look like they have a film over them too. Which could b why they r stuck firmly down still 

You are right push comes t shove at hosp on Monday anyway. I would rather take them off myself nd not someone else tho. 

Take care ladies x