Hello everyone 

Just thought I would drop by and see how everyone is. 

I am ok, have changed jobs and living life to the full!

Hopefully we will get some warmer weather soon.

Big hugs to you all x 

Hello Beachbabe,

It's great to hear from you. I am glad to hear that you are ok and I hope that you are enjoying your new job. We have snow here today and, I must admit that some nice warm weather would be very welcome. I am doing well and looking forward to retiring at the end of this month.
Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

A big hello after not being on here for a while. Busy doing nothing to be honest. Christmas was brill .. lots of family time. After 5 Storms have been nd gone with only a couple of roof tiles needing replacing... the weather has been rather good the last couple of wks. Even back to sitting in the garden sipping  wine and reading my books... good times. Still doing the school runs and spending time with little ones... it seems to get easier as they get older. Lots of crafting done and now got my Spring/Easter things up. August will be 5 yrs since diagnosis... oh my... how fortunate have I been to get this far. Hoping everyone is as well as they can be. ️X

Hi everyone,

Long time no speak. Haven't had an email notification for a long time but just got one so thought I'd check in.

Well a lot has changed since I last posted. Seems like my past traumas from childhood, the violent relationship I was in and the cancer finally took its toll. I turned to drink to cope and huge downward spiral followed. Just after Xmas Jamie got me arrested for being drunk around the babies and they called it neglect. I haven't been home since. I slept in shop doorways, stayed with my stepdad who plied me with alcohol and sexually abused me, ended up in a homeless b&b, lost my job I've had for 16 years and can only have supervised access to the kids. Jamie is taking me to court to take my house and has an injunction on me til October which social services made him do. I'm not allowed any contact with him at all or will be arrested. I honestly would rather go through cancer all over again than feel this pain in my heart....even to the point I've prayed for it just to come back and finish the job.

Its amazing how things are brilliant one minute.. Xmas day for instance then change in the blink of an eye. I'm now in a shared house until court on the 13th of April to see what's going on with my home. Then court again on 19th of may for the child arrangements order Jamie is doing. I'm 40 on the 1st of may and really not in the situation I thought I'd be in. Still, as of today I'm 57 days sober, a regular at AA meetings and just trying to piece my life back together. It's gonna be a long road to get any sort of normality back but everyone's got to start somewhere.

massive hugs to you all xx

Hello all! Wow it has been a long while! Time stops for no one as they say.

Glad you all are enjoying life.

Dizzle - so proud of you after having come out of a real low. Life has its battles but you are very brave in turning life around.

On Jan 1st of this year I decided I am going to start ticking things off my list. Celebrated my birthday for 3 weeks and went to all the places I've wanted to. Next - tandem jump on 15 April. It was meant to be on 26 March but airfield messed me about! The 26th is Breast Cancer Care Big Pink Jump but I'm still doing my jump as have raised a lot of money. My recovery this time has been difficult and long but I'm taking it one day at a time.

The Genomics people got back to me to let me know my cancer had a mutation in the PIK3CA gene and only 40% of breast cancers have that - no wonder it came back within 3 years even tho having been told I have 92% success rate of it not coming back! Since it was caught early I am extremely fortunate. So onwards and upwards and just enjoying each day as it presents.

I wish for all to be at a place where they are happy. Do what you enjoy and don't wait for that "special" time. Go for it and don't sweat the small stuff!

Hi to all, nice to see this string on the go again a few more good ladies and all back together .

Drizzle so very sorry things went wrong but really glad you are fighting back and winning .

i know I've no idea how you feel but wishing you all the strength I can give I've still some left .

Brenda got another UTI and turned nasty always shouting and throwing things carer came to give her a shower and she was throwing things, and threatened to stab me while I slept so carer called police they couldn't do anything so called ambulance and took her into hospital (early Thursday morning)  shouting and swearing . I've not got car now didn't feel comfortable driving job to concentrate .

Hospital did Tests water, blood and CT brain scan all ok, mental health team coming soon .

Bella could have cancer saving up for operation.Hoping next week .

Im feeling lost after looking after Brenda all these years .

Going to visit Monday, hoping she's settled.have to make an appointment before I can go.

JBains definitely braver than me, but keep up the good work .

Sandra good to hear from you again glad you are keeping busy and enjoying life.

Love Billy xxxx 

Sorry I missed some of you lovely ladies off just remembered things i have to do,head all over the place sincere apologies .

Oh Dizzel..... I am truly saddened to the heart to read your accounts of the last few months you have endured. 
Well.... if you were my daughter, I'd be wrapping my arms around you and telling you everything can be fixed. We may not be able to fix things like new but we can always fix them to something workable. 
 

You sound like you are already beginning to work on your new workable ... 57 days sober... proud of you lass. I assume you have a social worker who will be assisting you with your next steps. I can only imagine how difficult you are finding life right now ( another virtual mam hug)..

You have inadvertently set of on a difficult path but most importantly  you have realised and chosen a healthier physical and emotional one. 
 

listen to your social worker... they are there to help you. Listen to your heart and let it rule your head when it is trying to undermine  you. Your heart knows your are worth a better life and so do I. 
 

biggest of hugs sent your way lass. I will say it again...everything can be fixed... not always as new but always, always workable ️X

As always lass ... you have those inspiring words of wisdom ️. 
 

I thought they did the genomics the first time around and they said it was ok... goes to show, when they don't listen it pays to keep pushing.

Love your philosophy of live life for the moment. Now lockdown is becoming a bad memory too and all things are more accessible we should all be making a list ️.

Mind you I'm not sure I'll be putting a jump on my list ( I'll blame the osteopenia though pooping me pants would be more accurate lol). 
 Take care lass x

Bless Billy... so sorry to hear about your lovely Brenda. She is one strong lady though and she has pulled back from many a set bac..so got everything crossed this is another of those times.

Sorry to hear Bella is unwell and adding to your difficulties. Our dogs aren't just our pets but part of our family.

it must be so much harder getting around all the places you need to, particularly now. I think without question you have made the right choice not to drive though ️. 
 

keep us up to date how your girls are doing, and you, how you are doing. You carry so much on your shoulders when you are not well yourself so please look after yourself.

take care Billy ️X