Hi all, 

Sun coming out hope you all have a good time, hope all your thoughts are good ones,. 

Billy 

Dizzle and Jbains big hugs to you both. 

Just been catching up on all that’s been going on! Sandra you posts always bring a smile to my face specially the hangover one!! 

Hope your ok Cornish. 

The good- day off chilling out after a crazy weekend at work. How can people go so mad buying so much food it’s a one day bank holiday not Christmas or have I missed some months and we are in December?? 

The Bad- none x 

Thanks jbains and sorry to hear about your brother in law. Life can be so cruel. Thanks for everyone elses well wishes too. 

Went to the docs this morning and he gave me an examination and has done an urgent referral for a colonoscopy. The referral form said suspected colorectal cancer. I felt sick seeing that. Got to have some pre procedure blood tests tomorrow and should have my appointment within the week so least they are rushing it through.

My friend told me about the girl she worked with who was diagnosed around the same time as me with same breast cancer. She got the all clear and went to the docs 2 weeks ago with bloated belly. Turns out cancer had returned in her liver and she paddled away at the weekend. Really awful news and she leave behind 2 young kids. I had a good cry and I didnt even know her. Just hate hearing stories like that and heard them all too often lately. I hope this isnt the case for me. Just feel petrified.

Sorry to be all doom and gloom but on a good note, got a lot done in the garden this weekend. Decking and fence painted and lots of solar lighting so it's like a disco when the sun goes down lol. Hope everyone had a great bank holiday weekend x

Dizzel sorry to hear you are so worried. 

We are all very scared at times I know but I am sure the doc is only being so thorough because you have had cancer before. It could just be polyps that you have or diverticulitis - there are many things it could be and even if it is it is something that can be cured.

Try not to let the worry spoil the next few days. My philosophy is that I try to enjoy every day otherwise it is such a waste and after all it is what it is.

Sending you love and hugs.

Hi dizzel 

Bless....

well .... if he didn’t put suspected cancer you would not fall into the 2 wk wait nd your appointment would take longer. So best it’s on the form. It’s nothing till it is.... ask our beach. 

You are doing the right thing keeping busy. Erm ... pics of garden please ;)

look after yourself... tightest of hugs x

I know what u mean lass nd today apparently was no better here. Someone put on fbook t keep away from our local shops cos 40 min wait to just get out of car park lol. 

I would hate to work in retail .... or in a bar.... I’d be useless. Ok let’s face it I’d hate to work anywhere # lovebeingretired lol ;) x

Oh.... so did they say why no surgery? I also did not realise yours was triple negative!

its not good at all that u r getting conflicting information!

at least good news that there is shrinkage. A good reason to keep taking the tablets. 

You are absolutely right make the most of every day- as I always say not because we have cancer but because we should always have been doing this. 

Tight hugs sent your way lass x 

Evening peeps 

bad :- none yay 

good :- lovely FaceTime with the lil ones again today. Done s*d all the day.... again! ( well walked dog but that’s it)

def getting act together tomorrow..... I think:D

hope your day has been as good as it can be x

The main one is under the breast and is attached to chest wall so surgery is tricky. The oyther one is still very small and can be taken out.