I joined this forum last night and posted a topic 'Lumpectomy or mascectomy'

I was encouraged to read this thread which I'm making my way through now... There's a lot to read. 

Whilst reading I smiled at the good but found myself bursting in to tears too. I feel vulnerable and scared and denying it is getting harder and harder. I feel quite alone with it all but that's because I'm not reaching out. Not wanting to make a 'thing' out of it.

Im really early stages but have three family members that have had the same as me. Two have passed away and my mum, who originally had a lumpectomy ended up needing a double mastectomy and chemo which mealy killed and they had to stop the treatment when she went on to a coma. She's OK now thank god.

My experience of this disease are all quite full on and horrendous so it's refreshing to read some positive stuff.

Im scared.. That's a fact. Scared of the unknown I guess.?

Bad: this disease is crap

Good: I'm off to Thailand on the 16th April to spend a month with my daughter who's a diving instructor and lives in Koh Tao. It's beautiful there and she's my world. 

One love ladies. So glad I joined this forum

Hey Dizzle- a wedding is a paper. The true commitment is in the heart and Jamie is committed and so are you therefore that's marriage. You've now got a miracle bump to cement that commitment further - to me these are the most important reality factors. Who is to say you won't have your dream wedding? It will one day. You've come a long way - on your own - which is admirable and we are very proud of you.

Hey Ms May. This forum is a godsend. We are all here to support. One thing I've learned is everyone reacts differently to every stage of this journey. One day at a time and big virtual hug. I also have 2 members of immediate family with cancer but we've all reacted differently with breast cancer. Science and research has advanced so much and more and more people are surviving so hang in there. You got this.

Ladies hope all is well and enjoy your day.

Thank you :-) 

Hello Miss.May. Welcome to the thread. 

Anytime you need to vent, chat or feel the need to muse out loud, we are all here. We’ve all been where you are now, a lot, like me, have stayed as the on going support from these ladies has been amazing, some like Marlyn are still going thro it. You aren’t alone in this altho the early stage of diagnosis can feel like a very lonely place. Hang on there, as [@Jbains]‍ says, “you’ve got this”

Thank you so much..  I'll remember to use that in tough times

'I've got this'

'one step at a time' as my mother says 

Thank you Cornish and all you lovely ladies! 

So lovely  mine isn’t the only good news! Lovely hearing the baby news! 

Have a good a  weekend as you can x 

Hi rileyroo :-)

have you settled in your new home ok? 

Hopefully not too much for you to do x

Evening peeps 

bad :- none yay

good :- lovely full day lil ones swimming, shops, pub for food and coffee at daughters. Lil ones sleeping at mine tonight.... love it.

have as good a day as u can peeps x

It’s starting to look like home now. Still things to do but the urgent stuff like bedroom furniture and plugs is done!

Washer and dryer installed and working (sad person here thought that was a priority). Next is dishwasher as I have rediscovered  my hatred of washing up then getting new flooring for kitchen. After that it’s outside jobs so I’ll probably lose the plot whilst that gets done.