Calming down a bit now outside. Taking the mutt out shortly, well when I’ve done feeding my face and the dog has stopped trying to nick my food. 

Hi all, 

Sorry I dropped off the radar for bit. Everything seems to be going wrong. Struggling with the docetaxel chemo and met with surgeons. They are extending chemo for another 2 rounds. Was all geared up for yesterday to be my last one.  Then the surgeon dropped the bombshell that instead of lumpectomy they are doing a full double mastectomy be because the cancers so advanced. The another bombshell that they wouldn't be doing reconstruction for 2 years as they were concerned it could come back and if it does it's likely to be within 2 years. Massive kick in the teeth. I got implants as I struggled with having such a flat chest and struggled going out with friends as I used to get depressed about it and I'll be even flatter now. I know it sounds so vain but the thought of it petrified me. And they are referring me for a ct scan in 2 weeks as they want to rule out any spread to my spine due to the back pain I've had. Also the mastectomy ruins me wearing the wedding dress I've bought as they told me originally I would have reconstruction at time of original op so didn't take the neckline into account. All in all a rubbish couple of weeks. Hope you ladies have had a better time of it

Dizzle x

Oh hun ... I’m so sorry to b reading all this bless.

Of course you feel it is a kick in the teeth.... who wouldn’t. I know none of this is what u expected but all of it is geared to get you sorted. 

There are options for your dress... you can have a lace insert to raise the neckline or wear one of those wonderful boleros that go over you covering your front and back. One of the most beautiful wedding dresses I have seen was my daughters friends she wore a bolero in lace it went on face first nd fasten with diamanté buttons down the back... stunning. You pop into any bridal shop and explain your dilemma and I have no doubt they will come up with some wonderful options for you.

lets focus on getting you well first. ️ Not what you expected but you can do this. Sending u the tightest of tight hugs. X

Drizzle... Thinking of you...

That lace bolero sounds fantastic. Proper chic. You will look fabulous and nobody you don’t want to know will be any the wiser, if you can’t find what you’re looking for in a shop, there are plenty of ladies that sew who could help you out and get a bespoke wedding outfit to knock them all for six. You can do this, Get yourself well then we will all be saying how beautiful you look on your special day. 

By the by I was a bit of a rebel when I got married in the 1970s. I wore a bright yellow dress with a white lace overdress and a white boater with long white ribbons and beautiful yellow flowers on the brim. Be an individual....go for the unique look and stun them all as I know you will. 

Sundial

Thanks for the replies. Will definitely look Into getting wedding dress customised. I feel a lot better in my head today and guess having to adjust my dress isn't a huge issue in the grand scheme of things. After all my boobs are trying to kill my why do I still want them there. I get you counselling already so will do continue it. It's been a great help since diagnosed which has kept me more often than not really positive. Was just a bad few days x :-)

Hi everyone 

Is anyone having problems posting? When I click reply the text box drops but the keyboard doesn’t. I’ve managed to get it ( after numerous attempts) by clicking on pic attachment then closing. 

Just updated iPhone to the new IOS not sure if this is the problem. I have tried a reboot of my phone but doesn’t help. So if u have an iPhone nd on the latest iOS can u let me know if u have a prob too. Ta muchly x

Seems OK at the mo altho I haven’t done any updates for a while...

I have a Samsung and since the last update a few weeks ago I had the same issue. When I hit reply it goes onto my profile page then I go back and refresh the page and hit reply then it works. A bit of a pain but I'm not very technologically advanced...

Am now in Herefordshire on a walking weekend. Fortunately have invested in some good waterproofs so hopefully won't get as wet as last weekend which was soggy everything time! 

Have a good weekend all.

WQ xx