Very late hi to everyone.

Great to see Chrissie back. Yay......

Good

We won the footie. I like Gareth Southgate. 

Bad

i should have been going on holiday cruising to the fjords tomorrow but had to cancel because still undergoing treatment. Feel a bit sad.

Sundial

Sundial you will be having that holiday. We do feel sad that plans got changed but you will get there.

You are just taking a slight detour. I was meant to go on a big family hol last year but cancelled due to treatment. I am now going this year which is much better. It is all about timing and am a big believer in fate. For one reason or another I haven't been able to go on hols for last 3 years so when it does happen, I value it more. You are needed here to fight this bas**** cancer and you will. Just keep thinking about that holiday when you have a bad day and focus on end of treatment. You got This!

Oh thank you rilley ... You know how we all need time out sometimes ... Then come back stronger  ... It was all getting on top of me esp with sis ... That was so hard ... But she's settling in well ...

Sundial ... Just keep the refund in a safe place as your reward after treatment ... You need something to look forward too ... The fiords will wait for you ... Maybe Xmas Cruse could be on the cards ... The best things are worth waiting for ... 

Well hope you all get a good sleep in this heat ... I'm just laying on top of my fan (now ladies no rude sinarios please ) .listening to mellow magic ... Ocean drive playing ... So I'm daydreaming I'm back in Miami , crusing down the highway lol ... I can dream  he he ... X

Ahh sundial I feel your pain! Had to cancel my 2 week all inclusive to the canaries because of all this but didn’t lose much money thankfully. However the reason this cancer was spotted was because I have implants and my lump was wrongly diagnosed 18 months ago as a rupture. I got a big bonus from work so decided to get them replaced and the surgeon needed a report of where the rupture was so went back for a scan and then they found this! Obviously don’t need the boob job anymore so once I’ve beat this which I will I am using the money for the most exotic holiday I can afford. Thing happen for a reason :-)

good: we won football, out of hospital with nothing serious, just a bad reaction to the chemo, lovely day with the kids, managed to stay off the toilet for more than an hour 

bad: heat is getting a bit much and family are a disgrace. My sisters I have a always been close to posting pics of them having a lovely bbq in the garden and I don’t even get an invite. 2 months since diagnoses and not 1 has been round to see me. Even when I’m in hospital and they work on the floor above not even a visit or even a poxy text to see how I am. Just don’t understand it. Has anyone else had strange behaving family since diagnoses as I’d be interested to hear. I would have it out with them but don’t have the energy so just keep myself to myself. Got Jamie and my little girl and they’re most important .

sorry to rant lol. Enjoy yet another hot one ladies xx

Hi Dizzle82 .glad you're out hospital . with regard to your family .fam fam can be the strangest of all .I found odd when telling people there reaction are very odd some get upset you end up comfort them not right but cos we have this cxxp deal with all time and have accepted it it appears that were fine and you look so well they say you don't look ill what should I look like then.when they say and how do you feel In yourself they want hear that you feel ok so they can go away feeling bit better less uncomfortable emmm.this is just my opinion I may be wrong .my consultant say don't let negative people spoil your day she says there's 2 types people drains and chargers don't talk to drains they bring you down with there negativity.yu must stay positive they say oh I'd never thought of that I think sorry ithink I'm turning I to nana Tate .I have one sister have never had close relationship partly because she is a drain a big drain needs lot help with everything and gives nothing in return just card say hope you feel better no I don't actually. But she didn't really understand my illness .she has anxiety and depression and diabetes control on meds so these are huge problem for her and always have been .but my big gripe Is she is always on scrounge for money £250 a month asks me to get it from our dad who is 94 and frail lives in care home all organise by me she did nothing to help did not clear house with me I don't feel well she says .becauseI have POA for dad I control his account so she has go through me to get his money which I've now put stop to so am expecting usual you do t care blah blah he has been I .home 2and half years she had never visited him .so I feel that most people have normal family compare to me but guess all families have one .well if they haven't visited you I'd say there may be time when it's other way round I believe in karma.have good day bit rant today sorry hope ypuy doing well

Hey Dizzle glad you're out of hospital. You've got this. Regarding sisters I can totally relate. My family is out in Canada and my mom died of breast cancer and my sister also had stage one. Now you'd think that the sister whose been thru it would be there for you throughout as she knows the score. Even when she did ring it was to let me know all 3 sisters went out for lunch, etc. Then she asked how I was on day 2 of rad and then nothing for 4 weeks. I text her and she said she finds it hard and I made it clear that I need the support now and I'm the one going thru it so thot she of all ppl could understand. Then nothing for 6 more weeks so I was very upset and said what kind of sisters have I Got? She took offence to that and hasn't spoken to me for a year despite me trying to make amends. I drop everything to be there for any one - that sure was a lesson learned!

Families are a funny thing. It has become a selfish world but we are in control of only our mind and heart so how we choose to react to those behaviours is what we need to worry about. I have let everything go but vowed I would now not stay quiet but let others know how I feel - good or bad. The riff raff is gone and those meaningful relationships have remained. Don't let anything get you down- you are a good person. Keep your mind and heart pure and clean as we live this life for us, no one else. They have to live with what they've done, not you. My only concern is my hubby and 2 kids - the rest are a bonus if there. I also got made redundant on day of diagnosis. The way it was done was really heartless but all this I just thought of as a "cleansing" of my life and change of flow.

I know it hurts but keep your mind focused on getting through this. It's a lonely journey sometimes but you will get through it. I did - with some hurdles along the way - so all of us on here will too.

Enjoy your day ladies.

Morning peeps 

ahhh welcome back Chrissie ️ was a bit worried.... glad u r feeling u again...all is well with the world again :-)

stick em Dizzel stick em all. U have all those around u that count. Tiger is right ... your energy needs to focus on u not be drained by them. Glad u are home with those who love u ️. Just know we’ve here for u too. 

Just the cruddy bad today :- started with a tickling cough yesterday (both the lil ones have it). By early evening... thumping headache, eyes like p holes in the snow, hot scratchy throat nd ears. Ache from head t toe. Nose red nd sore from blowing. Yes.... apparently I am a wuss .... at least voice has gone so other than the written word I can’t gripe ;-) :-) today I am pathetically taking to my bed... :-(  

have as good a day as u can peeps.... I’ll check in tomorrow cos gonna put my pathetic head under the duvet nd try nd sleep the day away! X

Morning all

First of all the you look well comment.....I always say back..,Well obviously that’s what cancer does for you. Reactions are always interesting. Some laugh, some cough embarrassingly, some try to to talk it off. ,I find watching their faces a good indication when you mention the c word. You get to know who you can talk to.

Good

I'm afraid today that I was struggling to find any. However having read the above posts I think my good for today has to be my sister. I’m so lucky. She FaceTimes me when she can, usually thats most days and if she knows I’m going to be on my own, like today, she’ll be in touch for a long chat. She lives a car ride away and has had both knees and both hips replaced so travel is always a trek.  She tries to visit when she can. How lucky can you get...

Bad

Sad about holiday but it’ll pass. And yes I can save my money and book another when I can. It’s just that it’s a bit raw today.

Have any interesting but cool day, if you can.

Sundial

WE

Sisters are doin' it for ourselves.
Standin' on our own two feet.
And ringin' on our own damned bells.
Just Sisters doin' it for ourselves.

Let's rock......

Sundial