Sorry your going through such a difficult time , you sure have had more then your share ... I realise how hard it is loosing your sister ... my oldest wisest beautiful sister has vascular dementia and I'm slowly watching her go (she was like a mum to me when I was young ). 

It seems so much harder when it comes so close and it's like there's no break to be "normal" .  I think it's like being in a boxing ring and every time your knocked down you try to get up on your feet and life knocks you back down ... I've got grade 3breast cancer, but the way I cope is taking the most important problem and sorting that one at a time and not looking at the hole picture ... 

your not on your own here as we'r all here holding each others hand so take care and sending a big hug X Chrisie

Thank you Chrisie, so sorry to hear your lovely sister has dementia, a terrrible disease, it's very hard to see a dear sister in any pain and loose a person who was a rock in life.

Can you have treatment for your cancer? I hope so.

My head does fill pretty full, mainly of greif that Cathryn died so quickly and so young, she was our baby sister, 50 when she died.  I did sleep better last night, which is wonderful, probably because I've made the decision to see gp and ask for time away from work.

I coped really well when I had chemo in 2014, but I had support from Cathryn and my mother and was very positive. It feels hard at the moment becuse cancer seems to be rearing it's ugly head all around me (good friend died last year, another diagnosed last week). 

Thinking this through slowly...

I have to allow this to be and take each day as it comes, go back to the old strategy when first diagnosed. My plan is to see gp, time off work, sleep, do my yoga and enjoy the good rather than focus on the bad, which I can't control. As you say looking at the whole picture is way too much, I've got you calm down otherwise life is horrible.

Thank you Chrisie, sending you a big hug back and to your sister xxx Sara.

Hi there Sara ... really good to hear how your doing ... if ever you want to chat any time you can private message me ... I look on here most days I'm glad your taking things one at a time ... this cancer journey takes away so much , don't let it take the old you ... hold on to your heart and work with it , bless ya ...

im doing really well and although my cancer lump was big when I had total mastectomy on one side .. the result was really good it's classed as 'low risk' and hopefully get a few more years with my sister / grand daughter / family fingers crossed ... sisters holding her own and wer all there holding her hand , thanks for asking  

Its a thought but the upside of this journey is the love that comes from people close who although you know how people / family the love that they give is so amazing and brings out a closeness that stays in your heart forever... so hope you and mum are holding on tight and together... 

thinking of you both Chrisie x

Hi Chrisie

Doing OK today. I had CT scan yesterday and went with partner (Tommy), out for the day, a nice long walk and meal.

I saw a counselor this morning to work through stuff, feel better emotionally now but really tired!! I'm going to my yoga class soon, I find that helpful. 

Really good that you get lots of support from your family, it's  good to spend time with the important people.

I like to  have my own time too, learnt that when having chemo, just trying to live in the moment and not stressing about the future. like you say one bit at a time.

I'll let you know results of scan, I have an appointment on 27th Sept, so all revealed then.

Take care

Sara x

Will keep everything crossed for you ... will think of you on 27th .... Please let us know how you go x

Hi Chriss

Thank you for your post. I am so pleased to be able to say I'm still in complete remission, what a releif! Next follow up is 6 months time. 

I have an appt' on Friday to see gynaecologist regarding post menopausal bleeding, hopefully this will also be nothing to worry about, it will be so nice just to get on with life again!!

I hope all well with you, your sister and family,

Sara xx

Hay there Sarah ... your news is much needed .. you got a little rainbow come through, after the storm you’ve had ... bet your still in shock in a way that you got good (great) news ...

so you go girl , take every day and make loads of great memories... bet yr sis is looking down and is so proud of her brave, big sis ... big hug ️ Xx

Thank you Chriss for your lovely words. The sun is shining and it's my gorgeous daughter's birthday today so time to be close to who is dear.

Love to you and yours

Sara xx