Oh Carol.... I've had a real hard day today ... tears wouldn't stop ... then I was o.k by tea time ....  then I just saw your answer to your "adventure" ... 

You will never know how much you have done for me today ... laugh , I nearly had an accident .... I relayed your story to my friend ...  ; ))     ; ))   ; ))    xx  xx  xx

You star you ... I'll be forever graeatful .... I'm now back to coping again ... how lucky I am, having you as a vertual buddy .... Chrissie x x 

Wait until you hear the stories about the puppy and my prawn curry, then you truly will wet yourself!!!  My virtual Buddy. Xx

Another miserable day and all the misery of covid 19 again, so here we go!  Harry had no idea that Zippy was coming home on Saturday, Grandma was enough to cope with telling him about the puppy as well would be too much.  I was left to make sure all was well for the new baby.  This new family member that had needed a small mortgage to purchase  now had a bed cage with blankets, a massive blue fluffy day bed so he could feel like he was still cuddling his mummy, a harness, collar, lead, toy elephant, a small Teddy bear, rope toy smelling of beef, four bones in different sizes and a baby gate, courtesy of me so that it couldn't upset Eddie and Elvie, the *** cats!!  Forty years ago when we bought our Bonnie for five pounds we bought a collar and lead, that was it!!  Back they came with a fluffy curly jet black cavapoo weighing four pounds and clinging to Lisa for dear life.  He settled really well and we are all besotted by him.  Tea was a take away, prawn curry for me, up to now this bundle of fun was so little he couldn't make it onto the sofa despite having tried all day, but the minute I sat down he took a flying leap, landed beside me and promptly stuck the only bit of white on him (his whiskers) into my prawn curry, so I'm now struggling with a bouncing hungry puppy, a bowl of curry and not enough hands, Help I shouted, no one could get through the baby gate fast enough so back in went his little nose which he promptly shook as obviously the curry sauce was a bit of a shock, Lisa had to lift him off me, wash his face and we finally all settled down but puppy was leaping like a bouncy ball from one too the next until we gave in and put him in his cage where he sat whimpering sadly whilst staring pitifully at us with sad eyes, I don't think any of us enjoyed our food!  I relayed this to hubby on Sunday morning he laughed so much and I could tell he wished he was with us.  So tomorrow I'll tell you about Sundays chennanigans.  Take care all.  Carol xx 

I was soundly asleep  when the doorbell rang, 8.15 this morning, with bed head hair and just PJs on I ospened the curtains, good morning it's the window cleaners!  Now those who read me regularly will k ow that my window cleaner keeps disappearing leaving me with another job so I looked up check a trader and got these guys, I plod downstairs and make tea, hubby is still in bed but they are busily cleaning his windows, what the hells going on he asks!!  So he calms down after a cup of tea, back downstairs they knock and ask if I would like to go out and inspect their work, now remember I live in the North East and its blowing a hooly, freezing cold and I'm still in nightwear, so I declined.  So today I'm off to get my grandson Alfie a birthday present as he will be 13 years old soon, he was six weeks premature and so tiny I could hold him in my palm, he's now a strapping young teenager, so proud of him, he's intelligent and kind, well not too his sister, but he loves me and says so often.  I'm over yesterdays trauma, but it does bother me that a man watched me for forty minutes before saying anything, that's not right surely?  When I worked for the courts a new usher joined us, I'd been there for many years and basically knew how it all worked.  This man had been in a position at the NHS but like all ushers had retired and taken up a part time position.  When Norman had his leg amputated he was very kind to me, built a ramp for the door, gave me lifts when my car broke down, I then had an operation myself so was off work, when I returned I was called into my managers office and handed a massive stack of papers accusing me of bullying him.  So long story short  I was cleared of it all after a years investigation as the only evidence he had was a diary he had written every day about me, where I was, when I went to the toilet, when I spoke to anyone and so on, he had stalked me and I had to get the CPS involved to stop him harassing me, so yesterday brought it all back.  Hubby has just come down and said he likes what I'm wearing as it Makes me look much slimmer, he sees my face, I mean you're slim anyway but, he stopped, I'll stop digging before I dig a bigger hole he says, he's had to make his own cup of tea!! 

So today the puppy has been sick on the carpet, it must have eaten something I say, yes, parma ham, olives, tomato and feta cheese, did he steal it off someone's plate I enquire, well says Lisa, I didn't deliberately feed him a Greek salad, sarky pants I say, same back to you she replies, I think the early morning poo patrols are causing lack of sleep and sweetness!  I've been out in the howling wind cutting rose bushes back, clematis and honeysuckle, hubby passes me coffee and cookies through the kitchen window and says my hair looks "mad", probably because it's been hooked on the rose Bush I shout through the closed window, it's too cold to keep open apparently.  I've had to put the fire on as it's bitterly cold, and a big scarf wrapped round my neck, it's going to be a long winter.  I'm forcing water down him again as it's bloods on Monday, we now have a scan date as well.  I've rang Christine and her eye operation went well, Mary's Joe has had the all clear from his biopsy, so good news.  Take care all, love Carol x 

Dear Chrissie, Billy and Carol,

So very sorry to hear about Jess, so unfair.  A big virtual hug for you.

Billy, hope you and your girls are doing well, sounds like Bren is, hoping she continues to improve.

Carol, I finally caught up I think.

Take care, love to all.  Sue xx

Morning Carol and co ... 

Firstly loved the curry versus new puppy ... what a joy they bring ... and make me miss having a dog so much more ... and thank you and sue and co, for lovely messages ... as I know I only come on occasionally,  but I do look to see how you all are in between ...

Lastly I'd like to mention the funeral ... I was so dreading it , and really wasn't sure I could hold it together ...  think your thoughts reached me ... so thank you ... but I'd just like to say how wonderful a send off they gave Jess... most wore rainbow ties and bits ... and her mum was in sunshine yellow ... and her little sister and brother were there to say good bye to their big sis ...

She had rainbow ribbons around her last bed (sorry can't say the word) and a rainbow of flowers on it .. we went in .. I sat back as I wanted to be able to have a tear or two if needed ... she went in to " I dreamed a dream "   then her dad talked of memories of Jess and read "footprints in the sand"  then her amazing wonderful mummy said about what Jess meant to her ... and only her chin quivering gave away her heartbreak ... but she did it ... and said there was a hole in her heart , no one would fill now , it was for Jess... all the while a video of her photos over the years played on the screen ...x

Then they played "high hopes" one of Jess favorite songs ... as she was at college last year doing musical arts ... a wonderful uplifting song ... then more words of her amazing life and funny moments too ... then to finish there was a video of our angel Jess singing "you will be loved" one they recorded at a concert at the collage last year ... 

How did I do .. well it was so so wonderful, the tears just ran down my face ... not sad tears ... tears of pride for Jess and our amazing family that gave her the best tribute to her anyone could imagine ..

So I've not wrote this to make anyone sad .. I just wanted to share her last journey ... one cancer couldn't ruin or ravage with its total crule ways ... it was our way of sticking two fingers up to cancer...

Big hugs to you my buddy Carol... and for having this blog that brings that much needed laughter and feelings and emotions together in your blog ... my radio has just started the song .. " you'll never walk alone" by Gerry and the pacemakers ... how this song is so apt on here ... Chrissie  

My dear Chrissie, what a wonderful description of a last farewell to a brave young woman, you have put a picture in my minds eye and I can see the colours and videos and brave, strong parents and family.  We will always be here for you, your suffering has been profound throughout the years but your kindness shines through and I'm pleased my blog makes you smile, we need to smile as a sad face does not help us at all.  My prayers and love to you all.  Much love, Carol xxx

The hospital was manic this morning, they were runnng thirty minutes behind on a clinic, all old people aged eighty and over were being kept in the outside area in the cold, wheelchairs, walkers, shopping trolleys, none understood what was being said as staff now have masks and visors on, the world has gone mad.  Two little old ladies started having a verbal fight over seating, there is so few seats now that no one can sit down.  Boris Johnson should come out of  his bubble and see how the real world. Is operating under his edict, from this morning's fiasco, not very well.  So after and hour of waiting hubby returned stressed and unable to hear what was said, we are going to our GP next time, I've had enough of this.  Sarah is here so my house is clean, I have a swollen finger from stabbing it with the rose Bush, it's looking better today, thank goodness for tea tree oil.  So I'm off to post Alfie 's present and order some wine for his Dad as its his birthday as well, Hubby is going out for some fresh air, far better than locking him up!!  Sue, it was so lovely to hear from you, I'll reply privately.  Take care all, love Carol x