Hi Sue, eventually got your post, things are slow this weekend so difficult to connect.  You are having such a busy time and it's so nice that everyone is still inviting you to meals and other events, sometimes we get forgotten when men have been involved so they must all think a lot of you.  I've had a quiet weekend as very tired and uninterested in anything, I'll get back to normal tomorrow. I just needed time to unwind and get my breath back.  Faye rang to see how we were as she saw first hand how her Dad is struggling, she is applying for a teaching assistant post and needed her school maths and English certificate to prove her competence, this was mentioned weeks ago as she insisted they were here, I knew I'd given them to her as I bought a new bed and cleared all the drawers out making sure they both got their own certificates, but she insisted I hadn't done that, she's a bit like her Dad if she thinks she's right so I gave up telling her I didn't have them.  So last week she had all the drawers out, all the boxes with stuff in, all the boxes in the loft and still didn't find them, you must have thrown them out she says, I wouldn't have done that I replied.  So after a good chat on the phone yesterday she finally admits she had found them in her garage filing system, I'm sorry Mum she says for turning your house upside down!!  So today we have popped for a drink to our local Pub, I didn't really want to go but we needed a break from the house.  On the way I spot two road signs that have been flattened and comment on them, I pointed those out to you last week he says have you forgotten already, what a cheek. I point out he's not remembered many things I've told him in the past few weeks, and excuse me for pointing out that I have a hundred and one things to remember on a daily basis whilst he has nothing to think about, he shuts up!!  I've just had tea and for some reason am watching the Christmas edition of Call the Midwife, why do they do that, put Christmas stories on in the middle of summer, it's bonkers!!  So take care, love Carol x 

Hi Carol ...

Just popped by to see how your doing ... the London trip sounds fab ... just what you needed ... I'm sure hubby eating rubbish, was just showing you how much he needs you ... lol ..

Sorry he's going through chemo again ... cancer never let's up ... you think it would have a day off now and again .. but no, its too crule ... 

Grandkids are really amazing .. and punch and Judy show ... the old version ... never did us no harm ... how things change ... well Carol .. sending you a vertual hug... you don't realise how amazing you are ..

Chrissie xx

So today I've got toothache, it's going to have to come out, last time they tried to do it they lifted me out of the chair as its a capped tooth and must be stuck in with super glue!  I'm not going through that again, my face is swollen and I've got an emergency appointment tomorrow, oh joy, another problem.  I've mowed the lawn, tied back the roses without getting lacerated by them, the wind is vicious today.  Hubby is suffering from chronic indigestion as I forgot to order his medication due to the fight with the salbutamol inhaler, or lack of it.  We seem to have dropped off the radar concerning his health and lack of concern.  I even rang my McMillan nurse the other week and still no one rang back, I did leave a message saying I'd sorted it myself, but a call to see if we were OK wouldn't have gone amiss.  I can understand why people feel left in limbo on this forum because you're still dealing with cancer on a daily basis but with no support.  I'm very lucky as I have good friends, a wonderful family but some are all alone.  Harry rang from  Mummy's car this morning, they were going to see Godzilla, I hope it doesn't have naughty words in it Grandma he says, like Rampage did when we saw that. Yes replies Mummy I maybe should have checked it out a little better!  He makes me laugh and tells me he loves me, he cheers me up so much.  So Chriss thanks for the virtual hug, we're not going through chemo again, he's not allowed it again. I do very little compared to the help you give others, let's just agree we're both Amazing!  Love Carol x 

Dear Carol,
Things are back to normal today, so no problems posting.  Hopefully you will be relaxed again now that you are home and have had time to get your breath back.  Love how these children of ours do this sort of thing.  Had similar when one of mine needed their birth certificate, like you I was positive they already had it, and eventually when it was found they had put it safely away,  I hate putting things somewhere safe, I usually don't ever find it again, it's somewhere so safe.  Getting out helps you feel refreshed sometimes.  I love Call the Midwife, although why they would have a CHristmas episode on at this time of year, I don't know.  I have a couple of the books here waiting to be read.

Not good that you have a toothache, good at least that you could get an appointment for tomorrow.  Hope they get it sorted for you.  Sorry to hear Norman is suffering with his indigestion.  Really surprised you can't get Salbutamol without a script.  It's actually cheaper here without a script.  Just as well you have family and friends for support, although you have support from the professionals when dealing with any major health issues.

Harry sounds so sweet.  Grandchildren cheer us so often, things they say even things they do.

Had a lazy day today, just aqua balance this evening.  Then tomorrow I have Eli and Rotary tomorrow night.  

Take care, love to all.  Sue xx

Not a good couple of days here, I have an abscess on my tooth and hubby is having a melt down due to our doctors lack of support.  He is so stubborn that he won't go and see them so it's a stand off with me in the middle as usual.  Cue shouting, stamping of feet and driving off with no idea of where he was going or if he would come back.  According to the receptionist it's just the practice trying to take care of him, I pointed out that the only care we'd had was from the consultant, not them. Unless I called them out we never saw them, he has stage 4 cancer due to their lack of care, not because of it.  So he's been left home alone as I was going to see Rocketman and have a meal out.  Staying home with someone who doesn't want to talk is pointless.  So a brilliant movie, good food, best friends for company and despite the antibiotics, a glass of wine, something to help me sleep.  I hope you are doing OK girls, long time since I heard from you, I may stop this post as I feel I am no longer much help to anyone.  Love to you all.  Carol xx

Hi Carol,

I surely hope you don't stop; I'm on tenterhooks here every day, waiting to see how you and hubby are getting on.

I think your logged journey is of benefit on so many levels.

My Best Regards

Taff

Dear Taff, thanks for the upbeat message.  I try to write as it is but some days are harder than others.  It's a glorious day here but I don't think hubby will meet it with much warmth, he's still in his pit and takes longer each day to get out!  So I'll do as you suggested and keep posting.  Much love, how are you doing yourself?  Carol x

Hi Carol

I'm goodish thanks. On chemo again due to relapse, side effects are a worsening of fatigue and a little lymphaodema. Got a few more months to go yet.

Still ent ded though, which is nice.

I think it's important that you realise that you're one of the major posters on these chat pages, talking about life as it really is.

My best to you and yours.

Taff

So, because of Taff I'm still posting.  Not a good start to the day. Although sunny and bright his lordship isn't interested.  I watch the D day parades, and wait for him to come down.  A cup of tea is ready, two shortcake biscuits and BBC1 for the showing of the Veteran's parade, it might make him realise how lucky he is to still be here.  It actually works, we go to James Cook to collect his tablets, ride through Redcar along the beach. Call in at the Ship Inn (smugglers used this pub as a meeting point) eat a hearty lunch, well I nibbled on scampi, he ate rump steak, onion rings, mushrooms, tomatoes, cauliflower and chips, whilst I had a rhubarb and ginger gin and we watched the boats sail by through the bay windows.  We then sat on the sea wall watching the world go by and catching some sun.  Faye texted offering us a spare inhaler, hubby says how nice, I'm not bothering with the surgery again, I take my chance to explain the conversation I'd had with them, having been fed and watered, he said, I didn't know that, well he wouldn't would he because he threw a paddy and drove off.  So hopefully the melt down is over and we can have some normality again. .love Carol x