Hi Carol

thank you!  I was worried about coping on the day, but you know, it was fine, thanks to support from friends and family.  Your photo looks great too, life is for living isn't it, even when there are bad things going on.  Thank god for friends. I'm beginning to realise I need to do something for myself and am thinking about rejoining a yoga group.  Thanks for the the advice about the blanket, I'll look into that. Did Norman's sores heal ok?

No we don't live in Kendal (We live in Widnes) but bought our bolt hole there about 10 years ago.  Dave's parents are from Kirby Lonsdale and we both felt that South Lakes was our 'proper' home.  We love it up there and sine we retired have spent half the week there and half in Widnes.  Our intention was to move up there permanently one there were no ties in Widnes (I've still got both parents and Dave still has his mum).  His illness has been very hard for them all. I wonder if we will ever make that move now.

Matilda is 5 today!!  I will have to FaceTime her tonight and hopefully get a few hours with her on Sunday when Michael goes to visit Dave.

Where were you a Legal Clerk?  Michael is a solicitor in Manchester but has worked in Newcastle and I also have relatives who are barristers/solicitors in Leeds and Harrogate. It would be strange if you had crossed paths with any of them in past times!

Thanks again, your advice and support is so helpful.  Must do some ironing now....

Julie

xx

Hello ladies.  There are now a few of us chatting away and after being away for a while I have made short notes about everyone so I don't get things mudddled (which can happen very easily with me).  And so much can and does happen that there is a lot of info. to take on board!  I have given up on the Baileys Irish Cream.  I had bought a litre bottle on the cheap "for Christmas" but it was gone within a week.  I am glad I didn't stock up on them.  Sue, I hope you are doing okay - I noticed you said you were talking to Neil.  Good on yer.  I still "talk" to my mum and my son's dad although they died thirty-odd years and six years respectively.  Mind, I find that I am still arguing with son's dad even after all this time!  We had split up some time before he became ill but we buried our differences for Ed's  (our son) sake after the split.  Now even I am finding it a bit naff to still be saying "You never paid for my car which you wrote off!" after all this time.  Sue, it was the photos you posted on 2nd October that I liked so much. 

I am still taking on board on board the information that I have missed over the last couple of weeks - no small feat.  Julie, how is your husband doing now?  Are the antibiotics working?  I liked seeing your photo also.  I managed to take a photo a  few days ago on my new phone but alas have not yet worked out how to transfer it also.  Your having managed it encourages me to keep trying. 

I am just getting to know everyone a bit more; Gloden, good to know you are doing okay and look forward to it continuing.

Muffin (my little dog) is going nuts to be taken out so will have to cut this sort.  Carol, your post about the capsules threw me into total confusion when I first read about "rosehip tables" - don't know why as I make plenty spelling others myself.  I continued - somewhat mystified - until I worked it out.

It is very windy outside; I cleared the leaves from the front of the house yesterday as the dustbin men come on a Friday morning, also the people who take the garden refuse so I willed an enormous bag with leaves.  You don't need me to tell you it was just as bad again this morning. Jim - who mended the fence while I was away - had an awful job as the posts had broken (even the concrete post) and he had to spend three days here sorting it all out.  Also he had to buy lots of new bits and pieces all of which I could have done without.  I must go and get a new pc now I have the pin for my credit card but am holding on to the borrowed one from my neighbour for the time being.  Bye for now.  Annie

I've just read everyone's posts and it's lovely to have such scintillating conversations.  Annie how did you will the leaves into the bag, need to know so I can do it!  I always proof read my post but sometimes you read what you wrote, so sorry everyone it was tablets not tables.  I've sat and watched the Royal wedding , she looked stunning but there was a lot of emerald green about.  Hubby wasn't going to watch it but he got hooked, I can't say I was fond of the hat Fergie wore as Mother of the bride, mine was much prettier and only from Marks and Spencer,  obviously it was ready made as well!  I've stayed indoors today, so no gardening again I couldn't even be bothered to go food shopping as it's wet, windy and horrible.   We had a call from our Mc Millan nurse today and a follow up letter, confirming no active cancer but quite a loss of lung function, the funny thing is he's never had trouble breathing,  they seem bemused about this.  The tablets didn't get  sprinkled on his beef, and he didn't break them in half, it's too much like hard work !  Julie, I wasn't a Legal Clerk, I retired from our family business aged 54, then became a travelling Court Usher, so I may have seen Dave as I worked Crown Court, Magistrates and County.  I loved it until it was cut to the bone, I'm sure Dave knows what I mean, yes his sores healed, you just have to take care, the hospital beds are not comfortable and when Norman spent a month in them he was in a pretty bad way.  Your love and care will get him better.  Love to you all. Xx

Forgot to say, happy fith birthday to Julies granddaughter.

Hello all you lovely girls. Have been to Llandudno for a few days. My daughter Cathy booked one of the new roof top suites with our own balcony at The George on the promenade. Wonderful hotel. Good food and great service. I’ve been spoiled. I also started to go without my little hats as the hair is starting to grow . I felt bit self conscious at first but got several compliments. Did the makeup and the eyes and earrings too. Felt a bit of me coming through at last. Hope everyone is coping in this wind and rain. Think winter seems to be not so far away. The shops are full of Christmas. Much as I love it I feel it’s too soon to be everywhere. Sending you all lots of hugs xxx

Hi Gloria,  it's so nice to have a wonderful time when you've been through so much.  We all deserve a proper life to run alongside our cancer life, because life is worth living.  I hope it wasn't too windy for you, good job you left the hat off!  So we've all had some me time and Sue is coping admirably.  Well done to us all.  A gentle pat on the back from me. Xx

Julie, you are always going to have down moments, it's only natural.  The one thing that seems to resonate with readers is my truthfulness.   Say how you feel here, no one will ever criticise you for it, it also gets it out your head so you sleep a little better.  Let us know how the birthday tea goes.  Xx

Hi Annie

Thanks for the response. He is improving but it's taking so long that there are concerns the cancer might spread in the time it's taking to get rid of the infection.  Pancreatic cancers can be particularly aggressive apparently.  For the first time today, the Dr said this, which brought us down to say the least.  I can't let myself believe it might be inoperable.

Keep trying with the photos.  There is a little icon that looks like a photo in the bar above 'hi annie' . I clicked on that then went to the top of the page where it said change avatar, choose file, I then chose a photo from my library.  Hope this makes sense!

Love Julie X

ps I make notes too

Thanks Carol.  I'll let you know how we go!  

We just had the Dr tell us today that with the time it's taking to get rid of the infection, there is a chance the cancer might spread and therefore not be operable. I know they have to tell us the worst case scenario but it really threw us. I am ok now (wine has helped) and the show does have to go on.  

Speak soon,

love 

Julie x