Stay Strong

I have a busy day and come home to my lovely neighbour mowing my back lawn.  I chastise him and say  I would have got round to it, he knew I was struggling and came in whilst I was out.  These kindnesses make my day.  I think hubby is not looking well and voice my concerns.   Nope he says he's fine but a little niggle tells me otherwise.   I get up this morning and he admits he's not good..  appointment at Doctors and he has another infection.  I am being picked up by a friend to go to Wynyard Hall and gardens, the day is glorious and she has the soft top down,we arrive and I look like Bridget Jones after her ride in an open top car!  We have home made cake and coffee and meander the beautiful gardens looking at the pumpkins, sweetcorn and variety of flowers.  I suddenly spot a flower that hubby and I keep seeing  on our drives and it's driving him insane not knowing its name.  A lady hears us talking, takes a photo, Googles it and walks back to tell me, it's  called the common tansy. People are so thoughtful and kind!  Back home hubby laughs at the state of my hair, saying I look like I have been pulled through a hedge backwards,  charming!!  I tell him the plants name, lovely he says and promptly falls asleep on his sheepskin in the sunny conservatory.   Hopefully the antibiotics will kick in soon, I want my normal hubby back.

  • Hello Lynne !

    I'm trying my best to stay zen, I'm on a waiting list for my operation for the bladder, I don't even have the result's of my last scan so yes it is stressfull, all I want is to get over with it and try to live a ''normal'' life.

    Merino

  • Hi Merino, What a lot you have had to deal with this year.  The waiting is horrible and stressful and I feel  once we start on this journey we want to feel we are moving forward, getting closer to the end to that "normal" that we once had.  Can only hope your wait isn't too much longer.  Take care and stay strong.

    Sue.

  • Thank You Sue.

    I have been in and out of hospitals since 2007 (first heart attack) my chemo nurse is on vacation until early September.

    I'll get in touch with her then

    Merino.

  • Thanks.  I didn't explain myself very well.  I just use the old pc with a screen I bought separately some time ago when the previous one gave up the ghost. It's quite a big screen and I use the whole apparatus for my online work and my games - it is great for that!.   But I am becoming very aware that the pc is beginning to feel the strain so I'll have to get another one sooner or later. Annie

  • Well I'm back!  They all left at 7.45 am and it's so quiet I can hear myself breathe.  As usual we have fitted so much in and had great fun.   Trampolining , rock climbing, going to see the mad puppy which set off Ella's skin into bright red welts and Alfie's socks covered in dog hair!  Seeing Sue with a broken ankle trying to control Luna is a sight to behold, if she's not careful something else will get broken soon.  The children take her into the garden (the dog not Sue) and she disappeared into the bushes, returning with  burrs all stuck to her nose, tummy,  legs and anywhere she has hair,  Luke had had to  shower her the day before as she had gone round and round in circles in the mud and they couldn't get her clean!!  We travel to Richmond and have lunch with Grandad and then he and Alfie go off on the  buggy for some fresh air.  We three come home, Ella falls asleep and Faye and I get the old photos out and spend hours reminiscing , right back to 1945.  We laugh at me in the early sixties with winged glasses and back combed hair and hubby with his black hair and silly grins, wearing my Mum's wedding hat.  Such lovely memories, so we take  more photos of us all for our next generation to laugh at.  Very tired now and off to have a minor op on my eye.  If I can see I'll be back tomorrow.   Take care all of you. X

  • Hi Carol.  What we few days you have had,sounds as though you were busy and lots of funf had by all..  It is wonderful looking through old photos.  I must admit though, it's cringe worthy looking at some of the fashions and hairstyle I had.  I didn't leave the house today, been busy doing mundane by necessary things, lots of washing, cooking, even cleaned the oven, which I hate doing.  Make a delicious Madras lamb curry with spinach and rice, wasn't sure Neil would eat it but he managed a small bowl. All in all a pretty good day.  Hope the op on your eye goes well.  Take care. x

  • Hi Merino,  That was lovely, thank you.  Hope you are doing well today.  Take care.  Sue

  • Hi Sue,  I'm pleased he's eating a little bit more.  I found with Norman I had to tempt him with what he liked.  Some days are better than others for all of us.  Have a lovely evening. X

  • There's a lot of sleeping going on in this house since everyone went, me I managed a full eight hours and hubby has got up read the papers and gone back to sleep!   I had to wake him up to go for my eye surgery which I went a day early for.  All his appointment dates are kept but I seem to muddle mine up.  So back today and it's a little more complicated than I thought,  so without boring you I'm having it all done in one fell swoop, a mini face lift the guy says, I tell him I need it after 18 months of trauma!  When Faye was home the new windowcleaner turns up, I'm washing clothes, putting bins out, getting ready to go out and Ella and Alfie are following me about.  He comes down on his stair lift and the first thing he says is, well I'm not greatly impressed with them, my bedroom windows are all smeared,  this literally sends me over the edge.  Faye follows me into the bedroom and says I'm over reacting, she gets a few home truths and I tell her to go away and leave me alone.   This obviously shocks them all as when I finally re surface you could cut the atmosphere with a knife.  No one has any idea how hard it is to live under a death sentence,  never knowing how the tumour is behaving.   No one helps because no one is here, a few days of eating out, enjoying ourselves doesn't make up for months of coping on your own.  We're doing well but it's not easy. See you tomorrow. X