I just want to apologise for my self-pitying post when my worries are nothing compared with your own.  (But it does feel a bit better to write things down!). Annie

Hi ANNIE,  what a time you are having.   I knew the foot would take a long time to heal, they say it's easier to have a break than a tear.  Mind if you were my evil step mother it wouldn't!   She my Dad my brother and his wife all went on holiday together,  my brother threw her off a small jetty, broke her foot and forty years later she still hobbles about in front of him to prove a point!  I've been wanting to decorate the hall and the bedroom but he's not up to the disruption it will cause and I keep shutting my eyes at all the marks I now can't rub off anymore.   Lisa has had a tough week, one of Harry's friends Daddy has died so they moved the little play they were doing to Thursday,  Lisa was finishing work this day, so dashed up to London to hand her lap top in, ran for the train back to Surrey and someone had killed themselves on the track.  What is wrong with people, how selfish is suicide when you traumatise train drivers and disrupt hundreds of people's lives.  So Daddy didn't make it and she got there by the skin of her teeth.  I've arranged a gardener this week, I do so much before they all arrive I get tired, I forget I'm a few months shy of seventy!!  Faye is forty five tomorrow,  where has that time gone?  I hope you don't feel to abandoned and your pesky foot is soon on the mend.  Love Carol x

It's 25 degrees but muggy and hot, I have jobs to do with everyone coming amd the perspiration is running down my back.   We dress the wounds which look so much better so the magic gel is working, why could we not have had this month's ago? Everything seems to be left until it's so hard to put right that I get cross over the lack of input by the medical profession.   I ring Faye as it's her birthday and Ella wants to know where everyone is sleeping, perhaps someone could sleep on the sofa Grandma,  she says, well you're the littlest so why don't we put you on the sofa,  the lack of a reply means No!    We've been for a quick drink but it's so un pleasant that we come home plus I was drinking too fast, apparently.   Feet up for the last time.  If I go incognito , you know why

Today has been so hot and left me feeling hot, sweaty and irritable.   The gardener came to do my lawn and the hedge, the cleaner came to sort the beds out, I abandoned everyone and want to Tesco, I could have stayed there all day in the freezer department !  Lisa and Harry arrive at 1. 30 pm we have lunch put his scooter together and go for a walk.  He's so excited to be here he never shuts up which drives Mum bonkers.  We decide to have tea at Walworth Castle if I have to cook I'll melt.  We buy Lisa an expensive gin and tonic, sit outside , the menu blows over and promptly knocks her G & T all over the floor!  Harry is worn out so we have a cool bath, a story and Mummy goes missing, yep she's fallen asleep and he's still awake.   So off to bed for a hot weary family. 

Hello Carol; I haven't disappeared or forgotten you; have had trouble logging in the last couple of days.  Have to sdtart from scratch and even then nothing happens sometimes.  Am getting over my self-pity and am trying to get things moving despite the heat.  Sweat running into your eye really stings doesn't it?

I had a friend who was a train driver; a kid was surfing on the roof of the train, fell off and died.  My pal went into a depression; his mum had died not long ago and this was apparently the final straw as he killed himself not long afterwards by an overdose.   

I don't like to think of anyone killing themselves (but personally I have sympathy with those with a painful incurable condition who go to Switzerland) but involving someone else in this way is really bad.  Before I retired from my public sector housing job I was in the office one day when I heard a tremendous bang; I ran over the road to the estate from whence it came.  The son of a tenant had blown himself up in his mum's bathroom - he had been very depressed and had tried to kill himself by jumping in front of a train; he survived but lost part of his legs.  The point was that he destroyed most of the house where his mum and other family members were.   They were not seriously hurt but what a thing to do!  The neighbours - who always liked to blame the council for everything - turned on me and said it was a gas explosion until the fire brigade report came out proving it had been caused by "an accelerant".

Enough of my gory stories.  What is an "expensive gin and tonic" - up market brands or just the nature of the place where you bought it?  Annie

I get up at 7.30 am as it's so hot and Harry is stood outside the door so we go down and I make tea for everyone get his breakfast and try to read the paper.  Lisa comes down looking pale and unwell, she has asthma and is struggling to breathe and asks me to ring the doctor.  So I ring and explain the situation and we get an emergency appointment.   Harry wants to go to adventure land but Mummy isn't well I tell him, well do something else.  So I take her to her appointment,  get Harry and take him trampolining and wall climbing.   Back home Mummy is feeling beter so we drive to McDonald's for lunch,  then off to the cinema to see The Incredibles.  Very funny and worth seeing.  Back home I cook tea, clean up and then sit down to write this!  To say I'm tired is an understatement.   Another four arriving tomorrow,  I think I might emigrate!

Hi Annieliz, 

I saw you said you have been having a few problems signing in to the forum. Quite a few members, old and new, have been experiencing the same but we are aware of this issue. If it happens again do have a go at trying some of the solutions we have provided n this post.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thanks Steph; have logged in without problem this morning.  I have had several signing-in hiccups over the last few days but saw the note the moderators had made and - fingers crossed - hope I have got through them now.  The only problem I have had this morning was when trying to use the Search Forum function - usually when I type in a few words I get loads of excerpts from posts which talk about the same thing - but this wasn't happerning today.  Is this just me?  Annie

I'm sorry you've been having problems when trying to use the Search Forum function on the forum this morning, and apologise for any inconvenience this has caused.

Thank you for making us aware of this issue Annie. We've passed it on to our tech team who are looking in to and, fingers crossed, it will be working again soon.

All the best, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator