Well I'm seriously thinking about building an ark and floating away!  This global warming has a lot to answer for, are we going to end up like the polar bears, but hopping from puddle to puddle instead of ice floes.  I was thinking about getting some summer clothes out from their jiffy bags but looking out the window they're safer where they are.  Hubby slept better but again we are stuck at home as it's too wet to venture out .  I popped to Sainsbury for some groceries as tackling Tesco car park in this weather is a suicide mission.  We have received some photos of the children on the Isle of White and the sky is blue!  Lisa sent one of her and Harry setting off for New York and he has a tooth missing, he looked so cheeky.  I miss not seeing them as often as I want and I pray that by the summer I may have a little more freedom to see them. See you tomorrow .

MEN.  I am of the opinion their Mother's brought them up minus the common sense gene!  I bought hubby new shoes due to his others looking like we had got them out the skip.  Same shoes were sourced but the stitching was coming loose so I returned them, ordered new ones (not in stock), as he wasn't going out I said stay in slippers.   But no, he decided to wear the ones that caused his toe to be sore and lo and behold this morning he has an open wound again.  I drive to Darlington and buy shoes in a larger size just to keep him going.  His cough is subsiding but we stay home and watch the Grand Prix.  I cook brisket for tea but it's as tough as old boots, so I ring the fish shop, it's  shut, so we've gone from Sunday lunch to bacon sandwiches! !  A blood test tomorrow to see if his blood count is climbing, I think it is as he actually has colour in his cheeks  see you tomorrow x

The sun is shining, I had forgotten what it looked like.  Hubby has a blood appointment and my neighbour calls round for the rat trap, he checks that there's none in it as hubby never bothered!   I ask him to fix a couple of mini jobs that requires a screw driver and when hubby returns I know he's not happy that he couldn't do these jobs himself,  so I tell him that being cross gets us nowhere and he bucks up.  So he takes off to Richmond and I spend two hours trying to clean the garden up.  Everything is wet, muddy and covered in green algae. Apparently it's going to pour down tomorrow so needs must.  I have managed to cook meat he can chew tonight and as I'm out tomorrow night for a meal, I've doubled up, must keep pumping red meat into him, well that's my excuse.   X

So today it's sleetimg rain and 7 degrees again, I think about staying in my dressing gown but get ready to brave the wind and rain to do zumba.   Before I go I have to bandage his heel which looks pretty bad and back to his bum, due to sitting in one position for five hours two days running whilst watching the golf Open! !  I am buying new breakfast chairs tomorrow as he has flattened the cushions on the ones we have.  Hubby came back yesterday from his golf club full of the joys of spring,  he had managed to climb,on and off his buggy with his new leg and actually knocked some balls about. If the weather gets better he can spend hours up there,  getting fresh air and seeing friends.   The winter has not been kind to us and we need some sunshine.   I'm braving the weather tonight to go out, I hope it's worth it!   

Hi Caz,

Weird. Same day  I overheard my wife and son talking about a leak in the kitchen, from an outside tap addition I'd recently tried to repair.

I flashed and got so angry I was shaking, not because I was being blamed but because I felt I was and it would be impossible to effect a repair, with me in the state I'm in. Over in seconds but it put herself in a mood for hours and gave me low mood for the rest of the day.

And the thing is, it was completely uncalled for, did no good and I don't generally get angry. Weird about the low mood as well - I wasn't pondering on any of it, didn't think about it again, just low mood because I'd got angry.

Such exaggerated emotion over nothing - it's a ***.

Hi Caz. I read your post every day. You are so strong and an inspiration. I know how hard it is caring for your other half. I lost my lovely husband 12 years ago with oesophageal cancer and nursed him through it . It's awful seeing the someone you love going through it. Wears you down too. Now I've been diagnosed with non hodgkin lymphoma and had radiotherapy and reading your posts really cheer me up. I look forward to reading it every day. Lots of hugs xxx

Hi Taff. You reminded me of when my husband was ill with oesophageal cancer and I had asked a chap to look at the back garden fence . It was broken in several panels. He spotted him out there and flew into a rage. I had to ask the poor chap to leave and he calmed down. It was my fault for not thinking. Dennis had always repaired and done everything from decorating to building a porch on the front so it was his pride that was hurt. That he couldn't do all that stuff anymore. I think it's a natural man of the house thing and I felt dreadful that I had hurt him. So don't beat yourself up Taff. You sound a lovely man that cares for his family. All best wishes x

Hi golden, thank you for reading my posts I'm glad they cheer you up.  Sometimes I wonder if they have disappeared into a black hole!! Keep in touch, it's nice to chat. Xx

Not a black hole Caz:-) I too like to read your posts cancer vs life balance cos the two do go hand in hand:-) x