A little more upbeat this week as hubby is managing to make himself a cup of tea and has actually gone to the golf club to see the other Toffs (don't ask!) He misses the man chat but really has not even been up to my woman's chat! Very happy to see family but pleased not staying with us,I think this cancer struggle depletes you in so ,many ways that even shopping for food is such a big chore, chemo, blood tests and all the other horrible things I can cope with but throw another simple thing like food in for others nd my brain doesn't function. I can't think about what people want to eat as I am barely cooking for myself all my energies go into making sure my cancer love gets what he needs. I can understand why people want to hibernate life as we know it is too difficult to deal with, cancer comes first. We have finally received a,payment from the DWP, good job we weren't relying on it I can now pay someone to help around the house and garden, saving my depleted reserves for hubby and this black cloud hanging over us.