Am so terribly sorry to hear you feel so alone and that your Cancer journey has gone on to long.  Please believe me when I say you are not alone, many people feel just like you and are experiencing the same thoughts as you.

I read this chat site every night....in some small way I find comfort in knowing others are feeling lost and alone too.  My partner died on 3.5.17 from advanced rectal cancer....my life is nothing without him....I don't even want to be here most of the time... but he fought so hard to live and I know I must do so also....

Please look after yourself, I cannot take your pain or loneliness away but I do care as do so many others who use this page, I hope this brings you some small fragment of comfort at this time ...xx