I was diagnosed with 3b in my lung and secondary in lymph nodes. Having chemo but who knows when it will stop working and the cancer will become active again. I am 56 and through hard work had everything in place for retirement with my husband. It is 9 months since diagnosis and it is not getting any easier. Trying to remain possitive for the benefit.of other people but feel like i am falling apart. I know i am fortunate in that i am otherwise fit and tolerating treatment well whereas others arnt

I just cant bear waking up everyday to reality. I dont want to die but that is whats going to happen. I so feel for everyone else out there suffering. Had to get that off my chest, sorry