Went for my second cycle of fec on Friday.  Ihave  suffered from bad anxiety for a number of years.  I took a bad reaction to my first fec just after I got home and my blood pressure rose to 177/122.  So I was really anxious at my second visit my partner attended with me however I wasn't aware that he would not be allowed in with me.  I became quite upset and asked to go outside to try and calm myself down as I didn't want anyone to see me upset.  This seemed to really wind the nurse up who appeared angry that I was so upset.  I ended up leaving the hospital, I received a call around an hr later advising me to return that they would give me a side room.  I really appreciated this and it calmed me down knowing my parter could be with me, however the side room was a room that had a computer in it and a single little plastic chair that I had to sit on throughout my treatment, there was a bed in the room but the angry nurse told me it was to awkward for me to lie on the bed and that I shouldn't even be in the room in the first place, she stomoed around bringing the drip machine through meanwhile muttering that i shoudnt even be in this room and it wont be happening again.  she then had trouble fitting the cannula and told me my partner being there was distracting her (he was at the other end of the room looking out the window).  I was apologising as I didn't want to come across as being difficult or demanding it was simply because I was feeling really anxious.  The whole time I was being fed the fec my arm was agony which I tried telling her a few times but she ignored me.  I didn't want to go on about it as again I didn't want to seem difficult or come across as a drama queen.  Sorry for going on i have had a rubbish few days and seriously considering whether it's really worth it. I hope you're all well.

Thanks for listening 

Kirsteen xx