Friday 17 Feb 2017
Heeeey ! I've been away for sometime! Well I got through Chemo and Radiotherapy... it's a journey. But I got a work contract part way through treatment and decided to go back to work as a Consultant ... did not think I would last as I was on my fourth chemo session ... but I completed the whole contract. It really took my mind off the cancer treatment. They allowed me to go for treatment and work from home. The whole time I was working I found it distracting with less focus on my illness and more focus on the job. I expect we experience this illness in various ways but it's surprising on how little cancer became a focus when I was working. I went for my chemo and rads treatment ... but was keen to go to work so I was not alone at home. My colleagues allowed me to speak freely about my treatment ... but cos like .. well made light of it ... " off for my sun tan session now see you later" they made me feel comfortable and normal !!!! Well I'm now off and resting and sleeping for 12 hours ! ... and dealing with ailments from treatment ... painful joints in hands, feet and legs... awful rash on fingers ... constipation... weight gain. And fatigue. So I've had to find alternative solutions to get back to normal. I know this will be a long journey...
I started with acupuncture in legs, stomach and arms to increase blood circulation. Reflexology in feet .. which is like an internal massage... a course of colonic hydration to cleanse and remove toxins. Also changed my diet to chicken and veg... cos I'm trying to remove red meat. Joined a gym so started this week. Mmm think this stuff should part of the after care treatment due the after effects of the drugs. It's expensive so just as well I went back to work ! !
I don't think it's over from a recovery point of view ... I will always be checking for signs of cancer ... but I'm not gonna let the *** get me down. I'm gonna fight you every step of the way. I will never give up... you messed with wrong person cancer ...I have a mammogram on Monday ...who would have believed this time last year I was preparing for my Lumpectomy...I thought my life had ended. I was scared, afraid and felt alone. Only you can experience the thought and feeling of cancer ... and what that word means. Anyone who has heard a Doctor say ... "it's Cancer.. " knows what I mean.
A few other things that helped me through treatment were essential oils:
Lavender to help you sleep
Frankincense applied to the bottom of my feet helped me with chemo. I had less symptoms of fatigue.
Fresh turmeric and ginger helped with nausea. So did fresh lemons in water.
All I know ...it's that you gotta never give up... get up... dress up... laugh a lot ... dance a lot and live for you. Yes it changes us... we appreciate each day more ... I just wanna do what I wanna do now. No time for negative people or things.
I pray hope that thing never comes back into my life... so Monday ... Mammogram day... is scary and I don't want to hear those words again ...
It's been great getting my thoughts out this way ... so thanks for listening ... I still have a little cry now again... as this is my new life ...in some ways I feel empowered ... because I had to be strong I had no other choice ... I choose life every time... for me and mine ....it's a journey for us all to share.
