Morning Gill, thanks for yr message, you're a star. Yes if HER positive I will check how strong, thanks. Yes margins were clear, yay. I will speak to nurse today as i hv a couple of questions from last weeks meeting. How did it effect you psychologically? Yep will keep a diary. I'm on my own, well I rent a couple of rooms off some one in a big house and they're bed ridden almost. I hv very good friends around but no family close but they are in touch all the time. I'm nervous of being on my own but I'm strong.... Anyway.... How are you? How are you feeling? hv a fab day, hugs Linda xxxx

Hi Linda, Physchologically, not so good, but that was largely a result of my nearest and dearest not being able to say anything positive about my appearance, even though he hasn't seen my hair.  Turns out HE has a problem being able to do that, so I am recovering a bit, although I've got counselling booked and I'm going to a Look Good Feel Better session in late March.  I had 5 weeks when I couldn't see anyone at all as a result, but we've sorted most of it out.  I didn't doubt his love, but it was difficult.  I feel I need to reinvent myself now, because I'm not quite sure who I am anymore, but I think this can be a valuable opportuntiy to re-evaluate things and build a better life.  Being on your own, if you've got lots of support, can have its advantages.  I've been glad when husband goes out, so I can eat exactly what I want (or not) and walk round with an almost bald head, without worrying. You might find you need more help in the later cycles, but to be honest, I've mainly just slept and you can do without other people for that.  What I've found with the side effects is that no one has been as bad as I thought it might be.  It's having so very many at the same time that's been wearing.  Still, this is where the diary comes in, because you can remind yourself from it that it does get better and that when it's finished, the cancer is what's been beaten down.  Your body recovers.  Hugs.  Keep me in touch. Gill xxx