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I'm still waiting to start my chemo, have been feeling a bit down lately and just want to sleep so I don't need to think about what's ahead of me.

Sometimes I go to ring macmillan nurses but then I don't know what to say so don't. I know my family and friends are there for me but I don't think they realise how terrified and scared I am. I put on a brave face and say all is good but it's not, I'm breaking inside. I hate seeing my family cry especially my wee mum, haven't seen her much as she has a cold.

Thought I might feel better writing this down, I'm just so angry argggghhh 

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    Hi again,

    All I can say is that I know exactly what you are going through. The waiting will be over soon enough and you'll be on chemo. Most people actually get worried over this wondering why the heck is there a delay and worrying about what the first chemo session will involve.

    I found it an anti-climax once it got started. Take a book or a Kindle with you as it will involve sitting around a lot, either waiting for the chemo to start or waiting for the infusions to be finished. The novelty soon wears off and it becomes boring after a while. Wrap up well for your journey home, you may well feel the cold more whilst you're on chemo. 

    If you've any questions don't hesitate to ask :-)

    Best wishes

    Dave

     

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    Hi Donna, don't be afraid to talk to MacmIllan nurses. They won't be thrown by anything you ask or say. Tell them how frightened you are (though I know that this is not easy).

    You may be very sleepy after your chemo so it is good to have someone with you until you are safe home. I hope you have a fixed date for your treatment now and that you have a positive outcome.

    Take care,

    Caroline.

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