Hi Izzy, welcome to the forum, but sorry for why you find yourself here. I can't tell you how to stop feeling like you do, but I can tell you that people on this forum have a pretty good idea how you feel. Even though we may have caring people around us at a time like this, we alone are dealing our own very personal feelings about our diagnosis of cancer and it can feel like a very lonely place to be. You have come to the right place though as the forum members can relate to the shock and anger you are experiencing. You say that you saw the oncologist last week when she gave you the news that you have secondary bone cancer. Did she offer you any information on follow-up care or treatment, or do you have another apt. with her for a later date? I can't imagine why she would let you walk out of her office without some information on where you go from here.

I hope the breast care nurse will have some answers for you and certainly you have every right to question your medical team about a plan for treatment for you.

Good luck with it and I hope you have loved ones close by to help you through this journey that none of us choose to be on. Come back on the forum and let us know how you get along with it, and get support from other members here on the forum. We know how you feel and although we can't support you in person, we can give you virtual support.

Take care and sending you hugs.

Lorraine