Guilty

Hello. I was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer in April 2015, metastasised to my bones. Looked at all the statistics that said I'd be lucky to survive five years (Gleason scale 9, so quite aggressive). Had hormone therapy that worked well for a few months then PSA started rising again. Started chemo in March (Docetaxyl) and had seven treatments so far. Feeling guilty because I feel so well. I have a few days of tiredness but no sickness. I'm having scalp cooling (excruciatingly painful but I'm vain enough to put up with it) so haven't lost my hair. This makes it seem much less serious. The treatment sessions are so relaxing (apart from feeling like your head's stuck inside a packet of frozen peas). A bit like travelling first class on a train without moving. We have to be warned of the side effects of chemo so we can make informed decisions about our treatment, but this can make it sound worse than it is. I know I've been lucky with my lack of reaction to the treatment but no one should be scared off by the literature, which is published with the best of intentions but needs to be read with a sense of proportion

  • Welcome to the forum Geoff.

    I'm sorry that the prostate cancer spread to your bones but I'm pleased that the the hormone therapy helped and that the chemo is going well too. I can understandable why you may be feeling guilty when others may find the side effects from chemo a bit more challenging to manage but it's great that you're feeling so well and finding the treatment relaxing. I'm sure your post will reassure and inspire others who may be in a similar situation or nervous about starting chemo.

    Thank you for sharing your story with us and I look forward to seeing you around the forum :) 

    Kind Regards, 

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Hi Geoff,

    Thanks for sharing your story and that is a valid point you make. I too had prostate cancer and started with hormonetherapy Zoladex and then had 37 radiotherapy sessions. Several people told me of bad experiance's they'd had but I sailed through it. Apart from a little tireness and a little loss of blood from the back passage which was soon sorted. The thing is we all react differntly

    I wish you well on the rest of your treatment and hope you get a good result at the end of treatment.

    Kind thoughts being sent your way, Brian.