Oh, hellsbells it's quite understandable that you feel this way. We have to go through so much and don't always get the results we hope for.  I am lying in bed wondering if I can take a 6th lot ofpainkillers (I have had a bad day).  My back hurts, my pelvic area is hurting, I am coughing and have shooting pains through my head.  I cant sleep even though I have been up sinxe 4.00am, because it hurts too much.  And reading that makes me sound like I am 8 years old!

It's a rotten disease and you feel so alone with it!   You are bound to have off days and, as Brian says, these hormone pills don't help with the moods.  I hope tomorrow is a better day, be positive. And best wishes. x

Hi HB  .....  I and others here are in exactly the same situation as yourself and all these thoughts are perfactly normal.  Some days I feel so down and then I wake up in the morning and all is wonderful!!

Dont over-analyse things!  Of course this is how you would feel.  Have a good cry if you need one or put your coat on and get out for a long walk or visit a mate for coffee. 

We are all only human and have a lot to cope with, so I personally think you are doing bl...y well!!!!

Take good care and keep talking x

Hi woodworm

Thanks for your reply, I have dusted myself down and I will carry on, my sister tells me I will have bad days to have good days and this is true so nice to hear from people who really know how you feel 

Hi Pauline4

Thanks for taking the time to reply to me it means a lot,  I went for onc app yesterday and she went over old news really nothing has changed still can't cure me but hope to keep under control, that is what I struggle with I think she was preparing me for when it start again, I responded very well to chemo and now on letrozole, I have only been on it since June 2015 so I'm hoping I will continue to respond she says EVENTUALLY  it will cease to work then I will go on another treatment I think I just want to hear different words but I will not, I have had a better day today dusted myself down and getting on I just seem to feel sorry for myself  around appointment times but overall I do feel well  it's just you know,  thanks for replying to me it means a lot x

Oh hellsbells, so glad you had a better day, I did too. And do you know - we are allowed to feel sorry for ourselves, it's not a nice place to be.  I went to see my GP today who has sent a referral to my local hospice, that was scary.  

I changed hospitals recently and I cant believe the difference.  Saw the consultant last week, have scan next week and appointment with consultant the week after.  The diagnosis is the same. :-(  but I feel I am being cared for. 

I have heard good things about Letrozole with breast cancer and know many people on it.  I know what you mean about wanting them to say something more positive but I don't think that's their way.  I can feel we are both feeling a bit depressed on and off so I will check in with you to see how you are doing!  Take care