Hello, I was diagnosed with testicular cancer on the 1st of October, during this period I was fine, I think I cried once after the doctors for a bit then just got on with it, everyone around me seemed to be more sad than I was ! But now the tide has changed, I seem more sad now than I ever did.
It seemed like it started after I found out on my birthday ( of all days !) that my ct scan was clear. As I had left my swollen testical for a few months, due to the first doctor saying it's nothing , then being told it's an infection. I feared it had spread.
I know I am depressed but yet to talk to anyone about it apart from my girlfriend. I feel like I am numb and do not care about anything, ie my job my health or my girlfriend . I try telling myself that ,Toby it has a 98% survival rate and people would love to have that high of a percentage but nothing helps with how I feel.
How is it I feel so sad after getting such good news ?!!
