Good morning "gang" and a pinch, punch, first of the month to you all.

I feel a bit sorry for myself today and would like some advice please.  After four sessions of chemo which, we all know, is not the best way to spend a day, and getting through the side-effects which, although not very nice, I was always able to tell myself that after three days at the most, I would start to feel human again.  I have now been put on radiotherapy and it was my first week this week.  I feel absolutely shattered, weak, sick and very sorry for myself.  When I told my consultant on Thursday the answer I got was along the lines of "if you think this is bad, wait until next week"!  I was told that any possible side-effects wouldn't start until the middle of next week but, being greedy, mine have started already, griping pains, diarrhoea, to name a few.  Even my poor little fat legs are so painful and weak and I can't stay long in bed as the pain in my hips and legs make it impossible to sleep.  Neither paracetamol nor co-codamol helps.  Has anybody some good news along the lines of: it WILL get better, not that it will only get worse?  My journey to and from hospital takes at least 2 hours each way and by the time I get home, I just collapse in the chair and sleep.  The annoying thing is I'm not usually like this. When I was diagnosed, naturally it was devastating, but I got angry with the cancer and called it all the names under the sun.  I got through the surgery and chemo with the same attitude but this has really knocked me for six.  I've not been able to do any housework or laundry so if there is anyone reading this who would like to do some extra vacuuming and ironing, then do feel free to let me know (hee hee).

My best wishes to all of you.

Battling Babe xx