Dee, just carry on doing what you would normally do.  Cancer, once you have had it probably never leaves your head.  I had my operation 13 months ago, have had 4 scans since then, with another tomorrow, and its with me always.  But, I have had 5 holidays, lunches, dinners, days out - and sometimes I lay curled up on tge sofa and cry.  I suspect our lives will be full of mixed emotions, but let us try to make the most of it.  However scary it is!  x