Hi Sara, it sounds like you've been doing this battle for quite awhile now, so no wonder you're feeling like a wounded animal. Having cancer is a lonely journey even with other people around. Even having friends around with it, isn't helpful because you then know what they're going through too, so you feel bad for them as well as yourself. I have a few friends with cancer and one of them just died last week. I saw how sick he was for the last six months and I felt so bad for him. My other friends are in remission and doing well and some of them were diagnosed as long as 7 years ago. Its' a mystery as to how one's disease will progress since cancer is still such a mystery. We have no idea where this will go. If we dwell on it, it will drive us nuts, so I try to keep occupied doing things I can still enjoy. I'm not feeling too bad at present, so I'm going to keep on trucking until I can't anymore and I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

Take care and know that you're not alone. Come back on here to let us know how you are doing.

Hugs.

Lorraine