Hi

if you would like to talk about it message me and we can do it privetly

Erika xx

Hi Ladies (and Tony)

I thought it was about time that I checked in...... lots of things have happened to me in the last year.

I have really struggled since losing my mum, and seemed to have more bad days than good........ but that finally seems to have turned around now.

Let me give you the short version

I had reconstructive surgery April 2011 and unfortunately the left side rejected..... I then had to wait 10 months before they did it again..... this time it didn't reject, but the filler port went missing..... after 3 or 4 appointments, the surgeon finally sent me for an ultra sound.... and then they found the filler port, but it had collapsed under the bottom rib, causing the implant to flip over, so when ever i took my sports bra off, my left breast slipped down my chest about 6 inches (looking back now i can see the funny side ) but at the time i didn't.

I was supposed to be going on holiday to Portugal on the 13th of this month but I had to cancel because I had more surgery scheduled for 11th May..... The surgery seemed to go well and I have 2 boobs again, but it now looks like the surgeon has used a bigger implant in the left side than the right (deep joy) So I'm sat writing this with a chest full of stitches.... but I feel whole again for the first time in 20 months...... and the holiday has been re booked for last week in august, so that will give me something to aim for.

I dont know if i have to have more surgery until i go back to the consultant on thursday..... I will keep you all informed.

Another plus is...... I am doing the race for life on the 24th June..... in fact we have a team from my local pub "the corner pin girls" there are 7 of us doing it so far, my daughter, her best mate (landlady's daughter) a young barmaid, my friend and her daughter and our friend Ann, a pensioner who is a regular in the pub...... we have raised quite a lot of money already................... All the youngsters are jogging, and Ann got a bit upset because she said she was going to walk it..... I told her i was walking it too, so we would walk together...... to which Ann said "I will probably come last"..... so i just smiled and said "Ann, you're a pensioner and i will be a month out of surgery, as long as we finish, that's all that matters"...... so that is something else to look forward to.

I think I have rambled on enough now..... I am glad to see so many people doing so well

Love to all

Caz Xxx

Hi Girls, absolutely devastating news, when I got a text from Nina on Sunday the tears were dripping off my chin, he surely was an inspiration to all of us, I cant quite get my head around it. I hope all of you girls are doing well. I just got results today of my mammogram, all clear, thank God, thats me 2 years free. I ran race for life in Glasgow last Sunday, such an emotional day, especially reading who people were racing for, young babies, small children, young and old, so flipping sad.

Keep in touch. Col xx

Collie,

Brilliant news about your mammogram results...

Lousy news about Tony...... but he wouldn't want us to wallow..... He was one of the most amazing people I have ever spoken to, and I consider it a privilige to say he was my friend.

So tonight I will be raising a lovely glass of red to all my lovely friends that have gone before me.

love Caz xxx

Hello everyone,

Its times like this that remind me of what we have all shared together, the good times and the bad, my heart goes out to Tonys family and close friends, he truly was an inspirational man.

I often think of you all and from time to time read through the messages to see how you all are keeping, mostly its great to see you are doing so well but now and again we bond together to have one almighty cyber hug, so to all you ladies out there Im sending you much love and a heart felt hug xxxxxxxxxx

Hi Colly

not sure if you or any of the other ladies are still chatting on here but just wanted to touch base and say hi to everyone and say that Im still doing fine just had my mamogram and it came back clear, hope everyone else is fighting fit, much love to you all

Lee xx

Hi lee, don't come on here very often which is a shame as I'm sure there are women who prob need our help and advice. I tend to keep in touch with mist of the women on here through Facebook, if you have it, please add me-Colette Jameson. I was away to Canada there in the summer and then my daughter got married on 8th sep which was an amazing day. I'm assuming you've heard the sad news about Tony? He was such an inspiration to a lot of us. Glad you're going well and that mammogram was clear, I'm doing well also. Hope to speak soon. Lotsa love Colette xx

Hello everyone - I can't believe I am going to say this but I am 300lbs. I feel really terrible.  I had a lumpectomy last year and then just as it was coming up to my first mammogram after the year I was informed that I had the BRCA2+ gene.  So I was back at the hospital for a meeting with the Consultant with a view to having the double mastectomy and a hysterectomy.  Well - the Consultant said she would like to do an MRI as well as another mammogram and also meet with the Gynecologist (cant spell).  So off I went round to the MRI Department where I had to fill in a questionaire - WHAT WEIGHT ARE YOU?  I stopped smoking on 11th March this year and since then I have put on 20lbs.  Once my weight and measurements had been taken - the rather embarrassed Radiographer informed me that because of my GIRTH I would not fit in the machine and if I did fit in the machine then the table wouldn't take my wieght and the baskets would be too small to place my boobs in .  So the Consultant has asked me to give her time for a re-think.  I've not felt so low in a long time.  My mammogram is to go ahead tomorrow.  What I can't understand is - why do I need the MRI - I didn't have one last year.

I am much healthier than I was before as I have taken up walking and swimming as well as stopping smoking.

Sorry about this - I'm just feeling sorry for myself again.  I think I'm just embarrassed about the whole thing and now I've got to go back tomorrow and face them all.

I'll be fine.

Thanks for being here!!!

Joanne

Hi Joanne, I've not been in here in over a year which is bad as when I was going through my treatment there were plenty of people on here to help and give me advice along the way, unfortunately some of them haven't been as lucky as me and haven't won the fight. I'm sorry that you're feeling bad just now, but try and stay positive, lots of exercise and healthy eating xx

Lee my darling how are you?

Colette xx

Hi Colly

Im doing fine working really hard at the moment studying for my level 5 in health and social care, my own hair is getting really long again - but my how curly it is lol xx

I completed the race for life again this year in Rhyl it was a beautiful day.

Im loving the weather but miss being able to sunbathe, lovely news about your daughters wedding - you must have been so proud, Im still trying to get used to the fact my son turns 22 this year, guess I still think Im 22 in my head shame the reflection doesnt agree he he, well Colly if you ever fancy a holiday in sunny Wales you just drop me a line it would be lovely to see you. Im so glad you are doing well keep in touch xx  Lee xx

Hi Jo

tiny steps is all we can take, one day at a time, you have faced a dreadful illness that claims the lives of so many innocent and wonderful people and are taking steps to beat it ... well done 1st step.... You have given up smoking - huge sacrafice and test of willpower....well done 2nd step  now you are tackling your weight gain... lord knows thats a hard one that all of us have had to face during out battle with medication, lack of exercise and indeed motivation but you are doing it! and you will succeed ! because right now you have all of us right behind you motivating you when you feel down, kicking you up the bum when you feel like giving up and cheering you on as you loose the weight so Jo its going to be a long battle but battle is what we do and you are no longer doing this alone xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx lee

Hi Lee, I'm so glad you're doing we'll, I think of you often and wonder how you are. Do you have face book, I'd love to see how we'll your looking. If so add me Colette Jameson. I'm doing really well, my hair really thick but I decided to keep it kinda short, as I like it and suit it. I can't believe we are 3 years down the line. I'd love to catch up with you and some of the other girls. Take care and keep in touch cx

Hi Lee, I'm so glad you're doing we'll, I think of you often and wonder how you are. Do you have face book, I'd love to see how we'll your looking. If so add me Colette Jameson. I'm doing really well, my hair really thick but I decided to keep it kinda short, as I like it and suit it. I can't believe we are 3 years down the line. I'd love to catch up with you and some of the other girls. Take care and keep in touch cx

Hello ladies

Hope you are all well, it has been a while since I have been on here but as we have all said in the past we are a family on here and I am hoping for some support again, yes I have it back nearly four years clear cannot believe it.

Well here is my story I found a lump in my left breast ten or so days ago went to see my oncologists as had an appointment already booked to see him and my worse fear was confirmed, had my operation on Tuesday but home now waiting for my chemo to start in the new year, this may all sound very matter of fact but believe me I am as scared as I was the first time maybe even more as I know what to expect, unsure of what chemo I will be having at the moment but will let you know when I do.

What has shocked me more is I have never missed any appointments and I had one four months prior and given the all clear but was told it as a grade three and very aggressive, had quit a few lymph nodes taken as well, any support more than welcome

Speak soon

Little Sis (Linda)

oh LInda I am so sorry and just before Christmas, but you got through ot before and you will do it again, my cousin had it back 10 years later and has got through it so keep fighting girl you can do it.

xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Linda, I'm so sorry to hear that and I know this doesn't help but you're a fighter and you will kick this in the butt again! Was the lump in the same breast as last time? I know it's a scary thought but at least you've found it and early by what I can gather. You know we are all here for you, so keep posting. Lots of love & positivity coming your way xxxx

Hi Anne

Hope you are keeping well and thanks for your kind words, I have to fight it as I became a grand mother this year to two lovely boys both my son's had children they are my world my everything, please keep in touch

Little Sis

(Linda)

Hi Colly

Thank you hope you are well, I am told it was very aggressive went from zero to grade three within a few months but hey like you said kicked its a.. once can do it again, so good to hear from the old crowd it is true when we all said we are like family and hopefully now this thread is starting up again it may help others once they read some of it.

Please keep in touch

Linda

As the boyfriend of someone who has been through treatment once, I know that I cannot speak from experience about having to go through the treatment a second time. So far it has been great news for her first course of treatments. She is now five years clear and I hope and pray that it continues.  I can offer you all the very best for the new year. Treatments have improved over the past four years, thanks to CRUK and others, so you will get the very best available. I know that the contributors to Cancer Chat will be of amazing support. If you feel that anyone close to you, (assuming) boyfriend, husband or any other male party fancies a natter I am only a post away.

RD

Hi Linda

We all posteed so many feelings and thoughts when we wer all going thru it the first time!

Iam so sorry to here your news ! Bast**** disease.

We are all still here to ask anything anytime ! I for one am a rubbish sleeper so if you need a early hours chat Iam your man! Xx

Will be thinking and praying for you thru this really tough time !

Thaer is still quite a few of us that keep in touch ,we are all happy to be there if you need a chat or a cyber hug!

Lots love Nina xxx

I am so sorry you have to go through this again - I know I appreciated all the kindness you showed me (I was having treatment the same time as you). I will be thinking of you and wishing you all the very best  x

Jan

Hi Nina

Hope this finds you well, It is so comforting that you all still come on here from time to time and am able to talk to people that k.ow of me from old, it would of been four years clear in February really thought that I would of made the five years I just cannot believe it can't get my head around why again you think you have done everything right over that time although I am told its a completely different type this time and in the other breast.

I was due to go to Gambia Monday just gone but they told me I had to cancel my holiday as they could not take the risk of me going so that really upset me to I know I can have a holiday after and boy will I lol where I do not know, I know health comes first but you know what it is like when you are back on that roller coaster. I am told I maybe having chemo once a week for either 12 or 18 weeks depending what results come back from the surgery so will keep you updated on that and not looking forward to it although I am told it will not be fec but part of the Taxatier family(think I spelt it right) but hey as long as it get rids of it who cares, I will have to grow my hair all over again that's the part I hated most last time loosing my hair, we all use to say it and it hasn't changed now.

Well I can go on and on but what's the point it is what it is and I have to deal with it and praying it's not as bad this time around

Take care my friend and sending a cyber hug

Linda xx

Hi Sites I

Good to hear from you glad your doing well yes it was a really big shock but as you can see from what I have written earlier I know it's going to be hard but with all you guys around it will make my journey easier please keep in touch and stay safe

Your Friend

Linda