Hi

if you would like to talk about it message me and we can do it privetly

Erika xx

Hi Ladies (and Tony)

I thought it was about time that I checked in...... lots of things have happened to me in the last year.

I have really struggled since losing my mum, and seemed to have more bad days than good........ but that finally seems to have turned around now.

Let me give you the short version

I had reconstructive surgery April 2011 and unfortunately the left side rejected..... I then had to wait 10 months before they did it again..... this time it didn't reject, but the filler port went missing..... after 3 or 4 appointments, the surgeon finally sent me for an ultra sound.... and then they found the filler port, but it had collapsed under the bottom rib, causing the implant to flip over, so when ever i took my sports bra off, my left breast slipped down my chest about 6 inches (looking back now i can see the funny side ) but at the time i didn't.

I was supposed to be going on holiday to Portugal on the 13th of this month but I had to cancel because I had more surgery scheduled for 11th May..... The surgery seemed to go well and I have 2 boobs again, but it now looks like the surgeon has used a bigger implant in the left side than the right (deep joy) So I'm sat writing this with a chest full of stitches.... but I feel whole again for the first time in 20 months...... and the holiday has been re booked for last week in august, so that will give me something to aim for.

I dont know if i have to have more surgery until i go back to the consultant on thursday..... I will keep you all informed.

Another plus is...... I am doing the race for life on the 24th June..... in fact we have a team from my local pub "the corner pin girls" there are 7 of us doing it so far, my daughter, her best mate (landlady's daughter) a young barmaid, my friend and her daughter and our friend Ann, a pensioner who is a regular in the pub...... we have raised quite a lot of money already................... All the youngsters are jogging, and Ann got a bit upset because she said she was going to walk it..... I told her i was walking it too, so we would walk together...... to which Ann said "I will probably come last"..... so i just smiled and said "Ann, you're a pensioner and i will be a month out of surgery, as long as we finish, that's all that matters"...... so that is something else to look forward to.

I think I have rambled on enough now..... I am glad to see so many people doing so well

Love to all

Caz Xxx

Hi Caroline

My you are so much braver than me - I half want reconstruction but the other half of me is too scared to have another operation. We were both going through all this at the same time and you, Tony and many others helped me so much when both my husband and me were diagnosed. I recently had a bout of pnemonia althrough one doctor on the ward I was taken to  told me it might be cancer mets which terrified the life out of me. Well it wasn't but it turns out I also have COPD. still better than mets.

Tony hasn't been at all well and is in hospital at the moment

Best of luck with your walk

Jan x

Hi Ladies and Tony

Hope this finds you all well and sorry I have not been on for a while but like Caroline a lot has been happening.

I to have had my reconstruction done that was on the 30th March, so far so good so really pleased about that and back at work which has helped keep my sanity the last couple of years.I can not believe that 2 years 3 months have gone by already, we all use to think time had stood still in a way but now we all look back and think it has flown past there is no pleaseing some people is there lol.

Last year I lost my my niece to cancer god bless her she was only 28 and due to get married this year so I have given my sister-in-law the address for this site as I know how lovely everyone is and like I said we are all here to help in any way we can without giving the lectures, she lives in spain.

Has anyone heard anymore on Tony yet as I try to keep up as much as I can but would love an update if possible as he has always been here for us ladies and now we need to be there for him.

Caroline I am also doing Race for Life on Sunday 27th May at Hyde Park, have raised just under £500.00 so far and like you I will be walking as surgeon has said no running as yet regardless how long it takes I will finish and I do not care if I am last lol

Well ladies hope to hear from you soon and please take care all you lovely people

Love to you all

Littlesis (Linda)

Hi littlesis, runningdrums asked me to pass on his good wishes and to let you know that Tony's got his own thread now http://cancerchat.cancerresearchuk.org/thread/7064?tstart=0 you can keep up to date via postings from his Ma and from Fran.

Hope you're well

Sarah

Hello Caroline and all the lovely ladies here,

I thought I'd just pop in like a Jack in the Box... There is a new user 'Latitude' who started her own thread. she is having a port removed from the implant so wants to talk about things like reconstruction. You can read her story here.

Thank you if you have a minute to say hello to her and talk about implants, ports, permanent expanders etc...

Best wishes,

Lucie, Cancer Chat Mod

Hi ladies

Such a sad day, our Tony has passed away. Thinking of our Rose n Lou n dizzy as well. Will miss you so much. Rose n Tony were like the mum n dad on this thread n helped so many people in their cancer journey. I've been really down but have picked up the last couple of months, unfortunately I don't have much energy still but will try to be here for anybody that needs me.

Love leonie xxxxx

Well done Leonie

I was gonna come here and tell all the ladies Tony has helped ! It is such a sad day ,but at least he is out of pain away from this crap disease. He was a truley inspirational man.I am sure he will be with the wonderful friends we have lost! Maybe him and Carole are having a birthday drink.He had strong faith I dnot share but I am sure that would have helped him .I know we r all sending big hugs to his wonderful family and friends xxxx

RIP big man you may be gone ,but you will never be forgotten xxthank you xx

Love always Nina xxx

Well done Leonie

I was gonna come here and tell all the ladies Tony has helped ! It is such a sad day ,but at least he is out of pain away from this crap disease. He was a truley inspirational man.I am sure he will be with the wonderful friends we have lost! Maybe him and Carole are having a birthday drink.He had strong faith I dnot share but I am sure that would have helped him .I know we r all sending big hugs to his wonderful family and friends xxxx

RIP big man you may be gone ,but you will never be forgotten xxthank you xx

Love always Nina xxx

RIP Tony you were such a help to me and I will always remember you.

xx

Hello Ladies

What a sad day for all that knew Tony either personally or through this chat site, he was such an inspiration in so many ways, I remember he was the first person I spoke to on here and will be enternially greatful for all the good advise he gave to me.

R.I.P Tony your friend always Littlesis (Linda)

Fran and Family we are all thinking of you at this time and are here if you would like to have a chat

With Love

Linda

Hi Girls, absolutely devastating news, when I got a text from Nina on Sunday the tears were dripping off my chin, he surely was an inspiration to all of us, I cant quite get my head around it. I hope all of you girls are doing well. I just got results today of my mammogram, all clear, thank God, thats me 2 years free. I ran race for life in Glasgow last Sunday, such an emotional day, especially reading who people were racing for, young babies, small children, young and old, so flipping sad.

Keep in touch. Col xx

Collie,

Brilliant news about your mammogram results...

Lousy news about Tony...... but he wouldn't want us to wallow..... He was one of the most amazing people I have ever spoken to, and I consider it a privilige to say he was my friend.

So tonight I will be raising a lovely glass of red to all my lovely friends that have gone before me.

love Caz xxx

Hello everyone,

Its times like this that remind me of what we have all shared together, the good times and the bad, my heart goes out to Tonys family and close friends, he truly was an inspirational man.

I often think of you all and from time to time read through the messages to see how you all are keeping, mostly its great to see you are doing so well but now and again we bond together to have one almighty cyber hug, so to all you ladies out there Im sending you much love and a heart felt hug xxxxxxxxxx

Hi Colly

not sure if you or any of the other ladies are still chatting on here but just wanted to touch base and say hi to everyone and say that Im still doing fine just had my mamogram and it came back clear, hope everyone else is fighting fit, much love to you all

Lee xx

Hi lee, don't come on here very often which is a shame as I'm sure there are women who prob need our help and advice. I tend to keep in touch with mist of the women on here through Facebook, if you have it, please add me-Colette Jameson. I was away to Canada there in the summer and then my daughter got married on 8th sep which was an amazing day. I'm assuming you've heard the sad news about Tony? He was such an inspiration to a lot of us. Glad you're going well and that mammogram was clear, I'm doing well also. Hope to speak soon. Lotsa love Colette xx

Hello everyone - I can't believe I am going to say this but I am 300lbs. I feel really terrible.  I had a lumpectomy last year and then just as it was coming up to my first mammogram after the year I was informed that I had the BRCA2+ gene.  So I was back at the hospital for a meeting with the Consultant with a view to having the double mastectomy and a hysterectomy.  Well - the Consultant said she would like to do an MRI as well as another mammogram and also meet with the Gynecologist (cant spell).  So off I went round to the MRI Department where I had to fill in a questionaire - WHAT WEIGHT ARE YOU?  I stopped smoking on 11th March this year and since then I have put on 20lbs.  Once my weight and measurements had been taken - the rather embarrassed Radiographer informed me that because of my GIRTH I would not fit in the machine and if I did fit in the machine then the table wouldn't take my wieght and the baskets would be too small to place my boobs in .  So the Consultant has asked me to give her time for a re-think.  I've not felt so low in a long time.  My mammogram is to go ahead tomorrow.  What I can't understand is - why do I need the MRI - I didn't have one last year.

I am much healthier than I was before as I have taken up walking and swimming as well as stopping smoking.

Sorry about this - I'm just feeling sorry for myself again.  I think I'm just embarrassed about the whole thing and now I've got to go back tomorrow and face them all.

I'll be fine.

Thanks for being here!!!

Joanne

Hi Joanne, I've not been in here in over a year which is bad as when I was going through my treatment there were plenty of people on here to help and give me advice along the way, unfortunately some of them haven't been as lucky as me and haven't won the fight. I'm sorry that you're feeling bad just now, but try and stay positive, lots of exercise and healthy eating xx

Lee my darling how are you?

Colette xx

Hi Colly

Im doing fine working really hard at the moment studying for my level 5 in health and social care, my own hair is getting really long again - but my how curly it is lol xx

I completed the race for life again this year in Rhyl it was a beautiful day.

Im loving the weather but miss being able to sunbathe, lovely news about your daughters wedding - you must have been so proud, Im still trying to get used to the fact my son turns 22 this year, guess I still think Im 22 in my head shame the reflection doesnt agree he he, well Colly if you ever fancy a holiday in sunny Wales you just drop me a line it would be lovely to see you. Im so glad you are doing well keep in touch xx  Lee xx