hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Hope your aches and pains are easier in this lovely weather.I had a blood transfusion today and feel much better..We are going away for a week so dont panic if you dont hear from me,we are going to a cottage on a farm with the children and grandchildren and they have lambs and animals for the children and quad bikes for the big children !!
Hi everyone sorry its been so long again, just came out of hospital yesterday after having my reduction on the right side, still a little sore and swollen but very hopeful for the future, Welcome Linda and I too am so sorry to hear of your bad news, my thoughts are with you.
Caz how the devil are you and those lovely pert boobs of yours lol, Colly sorry to hear about your night sweats I have to admit that I haven't had anything like that but hey ho there is always time....We have all come through this journey together and I feel so privaleged to have made this journey with all you ladies, for those who have just joined us you are in good hands and an abundance of wisdom and experience.
Take care all you lovely ladies and of course you too Tony never a day goes by when I dont think of you all.
Hi Lee, nice to see you back and that youve got nice pert boobs, lucky you, aprt from your op, hope youre feeling good in yourself? The night sweats are starting to dwindle now that my body is getting used to the Tamoxifen. Rose glas youre feeling better after your transfusion, Leonie, I know what youre up to through face book lol, hi to you all and hope you enjoyed watching the Royal Wedding, Kate looked gorgeous. xx
hi everyone. I havent been on for a while as radio is making me so tired, 3 more and 3 boosters and im done - so to speak. The left boob has risen by an inch and so now i am lopsided. i spoke briefly to my breast nurse and she just said 'most people aren't symmetrical' i burst into tears after putting the phone down. i too am fed up with hearing 'it;s better than the alternative'. i am going to see a pycologist tommorrw at the hospital, and after losing my tooth and being told the hospital won't fix it, a lop sided boob is just the icing on the cake.. i look in the mirror and have aged 10 years, put on weight and i could go on and on. i remind myself of all the support and issues each of you have had, the tears and triumphs and it kicks my butt back into gear ready to face the world. So, i did an hours callanetics today whilst mister was out and felt so much better physically and emotionally afterwards. The issues i have are so insignificant compared to some of the threads on here, but as we all know, the issues we have are multiplied as they are all a consequence of this dreadful disease. It makes them bigger than they would be if we were in 'full health', I am doing ok, but find it hard to deal with so many issues - hence going for help - which is another reason for not being here, but i wanted so much to hear fro, caz and hear all about her new boobs! special love to nina colly and rose xxxxx
Sara u know by now that u can always come here and sound off !1we have all had those days so we know how it feels !! think about how far youve come your on the homeward stretch and soon u will have more of your life back. In the mean time exercising is great to lift spirts and make u feel healthier. so good on you !!
I saw occupational health today to talk about going back to work "phased return" I cant believe how freaked I feel about goin back scared I wont be able to do my job, am gonna go back in couple weeks bite the bullet . Unfortunateyl my knee op isnt overly successful but I cant face any more drs at present so i will just see how goes .I too am trying to lose weight but the bank hols celebrations have not helped coupled with i have no discipline when it comes to food and wine !!!!!!!!!
hope u feeling better but dnot be so hard on yourself for getting frustrated !!
love to all have been keeping eye on you espec those on facebook xxxxxxx
Hope you are all well, Sara what you're going through is normal, believe me lol, I used to look in mirror and cry because I had no hair, no eye brows or lashes, these were the worst for me as I had lovely long hair and really long lashes, the boob being a bit deformed really doesn't worry me, its slightly different, more pert than the other lol and the colour has changed because of the radio, like a nice tan on one boob, but im back at work, and going to gym now and then and starting to feel better, the weight gain is only because of the steroids, you'll soon loose that.
Nina, you'll be fine back at work, I feel as tho Ive never been away lol and I was off 11 months.
Hope everyone else is doing ok, Ive got a wee intimate question, hope my friends on here dont mind answering for me lol- since my chemo, the physical side of my relationship has dwindled away and I really dont know how to get it back, I think John feels like he became my carer instead of my lover, things are quite strained between us and Im hoping and praying that everything will be fine, but Ive got a horrible feeling it may not. I was only with john just under 2 years when diagnosed and he has been there for me morning noon and night for 1 year now, before diagnosed we had a great social life lotsa fun etc, but he's kinda done all the socialising on his own for past while as i just didnt feel up to it, didnt want to be seen out with no hair or with a wig, sorry to go on and on but I really dont know where to turn to, and Ive read so many stories on here where partners/husbands have walked out, I honestly couldve said a few months ago john would never leave me, but now im not so sure. Sorry for sounding off but need some advice please xx
hey col, i know where u are coming from, and think i can help but dont want to explain or go into detail here - we all lke to keep certain things personal. please mail me at simplysara1 @ hotmail.com
there is light at the end of the tunnel babe and it can be both fun, sexy and romantic again xxx
I'm so sorry you are feeling like this at the moment, you have come so far and have been my inspiration, I cant say what is going to happen as indeed none of us can but I can say this, Talk to him, tell him how you are feeling, If he is a good man then he will listen and he will reassure you.
I too felt like you, I found out I had cancer the 1st time only 4 months after I started dating Steve, then just when we think everything is ok ..BANG! it comes back, and this time its worse than ever, cos this time I was going to loose my breast, hair and ability to have anymore children.
I remember saying to Steve.."Look if you want out I will perfectly understand, this is a huge commitment to make " to which he replied "I'm going nowhere, not now, not tomorrow and not ever" I still sometimes wonder if he wishes he had taken the easier option, but I try not to dwell upon it, you and I are both coming out the other side now and our hair is growing and our lives are coming back together, the physical side will take time, but I am sure it will come back, it maybe that he is just trying to be thoughtful and mindful of how you are feeling, for months I wouldn't let Steve see my body naked and if we made love it would be under the covers and in the dark, but slowly but surely we have gotten more comfortable with the situation and whilst it still isn't ideal it certainly is getting better.
I'm sure that your feelings are part and parcel of this dreaded illness, don't let it win girl your so close to the winning line.
Thanks for your post, I know Ive come so far and to be honest I thought everything was great, dunno if Ive just took John for granted, presumed he'd always be there for me, it was just something he said the other day re my appointment this fri, he just came out with, he hoped and prayed everything was ok as he didnt think he could handle another year like the one we've just had, he's the one that slagged off the other men who walked out on their partners, but now he seems to be giving up instead of being supportive, he loves me, and fancies me but to be honest i just think he's scared, I tried talking but that was all he said, hopefully weve just hit a sticky patch and everything will be ok. Thanks again xxx
Oh Colly I do hope this is just a glitch hunni, You have been such a support for me and others in here.
My own hubby hasnt even mentioned my cancer, We came home after results I asked if he was ok He said uh huh I asked if he wanted to talk, and he asked What about!!!!! So Ive been here on my own and have not spoken again about it....So I have not had the support from him He may have his thoughts about it but hes never mentioned it. To be honest I wouldnt care if he walked out and thats the truth Sometimes I wish he would lol lol
Anyway Colly You hold your head high gal. Your a lovely lady xx
