Hi girls

So sorry that you are having a rough time right now, you have really made me sit up and stop moaning to myself, Colly I asked the nurse about your treatment and she said that yes it does cause aches and pains but just to keep speaking to your doc and try to get a handle on it, not much help I guess wish there were something I could do to help you all,

Went to Physio today and they have said there is nothing more they can do so thankfully that is one more hosp appt I dont have to go to, also bought myself a bob wig in a dark colour, talk about looking different! I think my husband thinks its his birthday at the mo.

Im trying desperately to think of words of wisdom to help you get through these dreadful times but Im just hitting a wall, so just know that Im sending you my love and prayers to each and every one of you and wishing you with all my heart a pain free time.

All my love

Lee xxxxx

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Hi Colley and all,

I was in so much pain last night (chest) my husband rang the emergency doctor who to my dismay send 2 paramedics. Andy said he thought I was having a heart attack and I must admit so did I at one stage. They wanted to take me to hospital but I managed to persuade them I would be OK at home. Thankfully after being given pain relief the pain gradually went away. I have to see my own GP tomorrow to try to sort out my medications. At least I know that this king of pain is common - although I wish it wasn't - through hearing from all of you and what you are all going through as well.

Just 3 more times and this will all be finished - can't wait. Now though Im really hoping Andy won't have his reversal until November (my month off) so I will be OK to look after him. He is so well at the moment but another op is bound to put him back a bit.

Hope all of you will feel better soon. I don't normally drink but I have told everyone I fully intend to get legless at Xmas!!

What,s this I see ,coming through the light at the end of that tunnel? Its Patricia !!!

Well done and what a lovely boost for everyone to hear your news.Good luck to you and keep healthy.

Rose xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hope you go from strength to strength,isnt it strange how quickly the horrible days fade,keep going forward.:love:

Rose xxx

Hi Patricia, im over the moon for you thats fab news. Onwards and upwards living life to the full. Hope you'll come on every now and then and let us know how your doing. Once again congratulations babe.

Sitesi you had exactly the same as me i thought i was also having a heart attack, not a nice pain, still dont feel gr8 but hoping back to normal by the weekend.

Lee thanks for asking your doc hope you dont get affected same way as me. Thanks to you other girlies too. Ntnte xx

Good luck tomorrow lonie,you must be so excited !!Get that wine chilling ready.So many good wishes to you, at last you are on the recovery route.

Rose xxx

hi girls

aw im so pleased for you patrica! that must be a great feeling to have an all clear. you go love n get stronger n stronger. just take things at a time including work, when you feel ready. think we all been taught to enjoy what we do n if we dont, then dont bloody well do it ey! you too journey girl, well done n all the best for getting that normal life back.

can i just ask about the all clear. its just ive been told i wont get it n need to understand how it works. is it certain cancers that get it and not others? i just dont understand why i was told that no-one gets the all clear as some patients were trying to sue the hospital/doctor if it came back? and yet you've both, as well as others, been given the all clear. i was told that as there was no cancer visible on the scans before chemo, then as far as they were concerned that is good enough for them. they explained that as cancer cells are so small, it was virtually impossible to find single cells. they told me today that it takes about a billion cancer cells to form a small lump that would be visible on a ct scan! i dont want to scare anyone, but i just dont get why some people get the all clear and not others.

anyway, on a more positive note, tomorrow is the last radio!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so as far as i'm concerned, my treatment is nearly over, i mean, i know i've got to go back every three weeks till february for herceptin and avastin, but compared to what i've already been through/suffered/achieved already, it is nothing.

rose, i'm glad you've got your wine chilling! i may have a drop of red so mine may need warming! i'll make sure i'm on line tomorrow so i hope you will all be drinking with me! the more the merrier! so come on all you girls, and blokes, out there, i'd love you to join me for a tipple, as long as you can! and all those who are unable, when your treatment is over you let me know and i'd love to celebrate with you all! i mean that, i've got so much love and time for you all, you are all so special and dear to me.

and on a much more positive note, got a phone call from my bro while at the hospital. he's only gone and booked my holiday! great, buts in in 4 weeks, and i'm the only one in the house with a passport! oh well, just a bit more stress, but compared to what i've had, this is much more enjoyable stress!

ps, jon wrote this post and went on a little rant when i popped to the loo! now we have ended up having a tiff about the cancer n it coming back n our outlook about it all. sometimes i just want him to listen to my fears n what i understood from the doctor. he hears different to me sometimes. sorry to end that on a low.

be online tomorrow night. lots of love to you all

leonie xxxxxxxxxx

Patricia... Brilliant news honey, I am so pleased for you

Leonie...Last radio tomorrow.... what a triumph for you... well done honey

Don't fall out with your hubby, he is only trying to make things easier for you... our husbands have seen all the pain and worry that we have gone through and they get so frustrated because as our big brave protectors, they can't protect us from this.... he doesn't want you to worry any more than necessary so he trys to make light of your fears, not because he doesn't care how you feel, but because he wants you to believe him and not worry anymore.... Its because he loves you honey.

I have got a very large bottle of red wine on my side... I will celebrate your last radio with you

I get my results from my scan and biopsy's tomorrow and find out if I am having a mastectomy and lumpectomy or a double mastectomy...

Either way, I will have a glass of red with you to celebrate or comissorate

My appointment is 12.30... I will be online when I get home and let you know how I get on.

Love to you all

Caz Xxx

Hi Leonie,

Good luck for tomorrow and for sure I will be having a wee tipple of something to celebrate your achievement at walking out into the sunlight after all these months being in that dark horrible tunnel.

Yes, you are quite right. No doctor is going to say 100 percent that you don't have cancer. In my case I was told that after having my mx that they were confident that they had got it all and it hadn't spread to my lymphnodes. The chemo and radio treatments were to try and mop up any stray cells. I will still have to be monitored for the next five years with appointments to see the oncologist and the breast consultant. Unfortunately as my case was slightly unusual, in that it was a cyst and not a tumor/lump and was triple negative there is no further treatment available to me. So as far as anyone is concerned at the moment, I'm clear.

A holiday is most definately a good idea. I'm off to London next weeknd, staying with my sister-in-law. Her husband will be away working for two weeks, so it's just us, doing what we want to do. Just have to decide which shows to go and see!

Anyway, all the best again for tomorrow and I'll have that drink waiting.

Patricia x