Hi Rose,

Thanks for that. I like the idea of a dolphin, perhaps should start a campaign LOL

Patricia xx

Hi Girlies

Patricia you make me laugh so much lol. Met with the Oncologist today, I've to have my bloods taken next thurs and chemo was supposed to be next day but we had tickets booked for the Ayr Races that day (alexandra burke is singing at it), nurse said fine and has booked me in for mon 21st, my big day, oh god it's going to be like a first day in a new job lol, I've to have FEC-T Chemo so Flurourcil, Epirubicin, Cyclophosphamide & Taxotere (docetaxel). It all sounds so scary, the wigs havent arrived yet, but I've bought a new dress for the races lol so thats made up for it. Speak to you all soon. Enjoy your weekend everybody xx

Hi Colly,

LOL who needs a wig, I've now got this vision of you ( don't know what you look like but go with it, I've a vivid imagination) in a stunning dress with one of those big hats they wear at Ascot. Don't know what the protocol is at Ayr races but perhaps you could start a new trend! Nice to see that the hospital let you alter your start date.

I'm feeling slightly better today up to press, long may it continue.

Patricia x

Hi Patricia, glad your feeling better today. I'll still have my hair for the races so no need for a hat yet lol. The dress code varies, some people wear big hats, fascinators etc but I'm not going to bother, believe it or not and my mum has a laugh at this, but my dress is a floaty maxi dress, so 70's, strange how fashion comes back round again, so don't throw out any of your clothes lol. Yeah nurses really good about changing dates, think because it's the first one another couple of days wont make a difference. Had to fill out a questionnaire yest asking questions like since having cancer, do you think about death, always, sometimes, never, they must wanna check out if your bonkers before starting chemo lol, i felt like saying come back with the same questions during chemo. Anyway planted some of my plants yest, so its nice to get out in the sun, supposed to be nice here in East Kilbride tomorrow but wet on Sun. Hope your having nice weather. Chat soon, love to all the girlies on here. Colette x

Hi Colette,

I know can't believe the fashion at the moment, trouble is even if I did still have the clothes, there's no way in hell I'd get into them!! LOL I had a long black halter neck dress, thought I looked the bees knees, I loved that dress. Just glad the platform shoes haven't made a come back, although have seen wedgies Have had to buy some new clothes since starting chemo as I put on weight (most people seem to add a few pounds, it's a combination of the steroids and not being as active) great excuse for treating myself. Didn't go for the expensive end of the high street though, as I'm hoping to loose the weight at some point, ROFL.

I can't believe you had to fill in a questionaire that asked you questions about death. I'm afraid my answer would have been 'What do you b**&%$y think?' That insensitivity makes my blood boil.

Managed to get some plants in the ground myself last weekend before the weather changed. The sun is shining sort of today and supposedly meant to be nice tomorrow (hope so, it's my birthday).

Patricia x

Hi Patricia

Oh no I dont want to put on any weight, luckily im not over weight but dont really want to start buying new clothes, I bought a whole load in march to go to fuerteventura thats where i found the lump, john making me eat healthily lol but i went to mcdonalds this morn and had a bacon and egg mcmuffin and pancakes and syrup lol, i had a notion and nothing was going to stop me. Have a fabulous birthday, hope you have a lovely day. Best wishes Col x

Happy birthday Patricia.Hope you have a great day, lots to celebrate !!!

Hope you have a fab day too,Colly.Your maxi dress brought back memories. I was 16 when maxis were first in fashion and I had a black velvet maxi coat.With my long wavy auburn hair,my velvet coat,a size 12 and knee length black shiny boots with laces up the front that took 10 minutes to put on, I thought I was the bees knees !!!Ahhh Youth is wasted on the young.

Have a lovely weekend all you ladies out there, O.K , and you fellas too.

Rose xxx

Hi to all you girlies and a Happy Birthday to Patricia!!

Doesn't the sun make you feel bit better. I even managed to go for a walk with Nigel and the dogs on Saturday didn't go far but the fresh air did me the world of good We were babyless as well Saturday night she went to stay at her nanny's with our second eldest and got to say completely missed them but was nice to be able to sit with feet up without feeling guilty!

Got to say the maxi dress is a must for my wardrobe as I'v put on quite a bit of weight with the treatment and think they look so stylish and cover up my multitude of sins as well as being so cool in the warm weather. I'm eating but struggling to be satisfied with the change in tastes and searching for something that I can say mmmm to!!

The day at the races sounds fab and something lovely to do just before your treatment starts hope you can back a winner!!!

I'm back at hospital for a top up of my Gemcitibine tomorrow just hope bloods are ok!! My eldest daughter who is 17 is going with me, she wants to be involved but think she will be bit shocked when she sees all the people having treatment Might do her good though coz she been in bit of denial. Had a bit of a weird week coz had chemo Monday and haven't really felt sick but had a really strange ache in top of my legs. Bit like a toothache but constant and made me really restless. Also been really tired I love my bed but on my terms!!!!

Anyway my kids hog the computer too and Msn is beckoning my daughter but she gets her kicks on there like I do on here.

Heres to us all and the start of a new week hope you are all keeping as well as you can.

Night

Love lou

hiya lou

glad to hear the sun cheered you up n you had nice weekend. i cant believe youve managed to put on weight too. do you not have any problems with your mouth? my legs started with pain at top but then went to all muscles. they even hurt when sitting or laying but not all the time. i hope yours feel better soon.

has anyone had problems with nose bleeds? ive had nose bleeds throughout treatment but this last weekend its been much worse. i had this long wet clot which with the runny nose came out, then so did the blood yet again that day. washing face n cleansing started it off, just the slightest touch. then that night when wiping wetness again out started the biggest clot ive seen but it hurt so i pushed it back up my nose. next morning it had dried a bit but could feel pressure in my sinus. the clots still there n its uncomfortable having this lump. darent touch my nose cos it starts again. dont want to go hospital cos this is 1st day where i feel better than the day before. will take up too much energy anyway n i have mother in law down on thurs n need energy levels up to cope.

its been quiet on here for few days. hope that means everyones enjoying themselves n feeling well. its amazing how 'normal' things make you feel so much better. just walking n watching the dogs play is lovely n makes you feel so much better inside. my dog misses me bless her n i miss her.cant go walking with her but can go sand dunes. walk about a min then sit down on a blanket n watch her play. shes a lurcher n legs it round dead fast. should of seen her face one day when a greyhound chased after her n caught her up! she werent expecting that at all. what dogs have you got?

how did you get on with benefit advise? hope they helped you. the money in my account was end of year tax credit. still waiting to hear from disability allowance.

hopefully i'll be more cheerfull over next few days n maybe even write something funny!

lots of love to you all. leonie xx