I have been having chemotherapy every two weeks for nearly a year for stage 4 bowel cancer. And was diagnoses a few years after moving to a new area. I have always been anxious about socialising more especially since I became single. Not infrequently I would cancel an arrangement at the last minute especially if it was an invitation to a bigger evening gathering with people I didn’t know. However I am always enthusiastic and like the idea of going out and tend to accept invitations thinking I’ll be OK on the day. It’s a longterm problem…
Since my cancer diagnosis this unsociability has got worse. Friends I have recently met nearby are kindly still inviting me out but more than ever I can’t really be bothered, I dont want to see many others, or necessarily meet new people and am less sociable than ever. I feel that I am letting these friends down and that they will give up on me.
Obviously there are only a few ‘windows’ during my chemo regime when I feel I have energy. At the same time I might well benefit from going out. In the day time I spend a lot of time outside and try to meet up with a few friends from time to time, for something simple like a coffee…….Does anyone else feel the same?…. How do you handle it?
