Hi everyone. Well, I was first diagnosed with breast cancer 6 years ago, and since then it has been a round of hospital stays, doctors appointments, chemo (which didn't work) and basically being prodded, examined and pulled about. The cancer metastatised about 3 years ago and it ended my relationship with my partner. I just didn't want to put him through any more of this endless cycle that I am going through. It has spread to just about everywhere. I am now living with my sister who is brilliant.........she takes very good care of me, but here is the crux of the matter: I have had enough of it all. I just wish this damned monstrous disease would hurry up and take me. I don't want to deal with it any more. I am sorry if I have offended anyone, because that is the last thing I want to do........but I really am sick of fighting something that I know is going to beat me in the end anyway. I feel like I have lost my life and my identity. Thank you if you have taken the time to read my post.........maybe I just needed to let off some steam. My days are now spent mostly in bed because I do not have the energy to do anything at all. I can just about shower myself and then it is back to bed. Is it wrong that I feel this way? I know that I should keep fighting it as hard as I can, but I have lost all my energy.
