l hope you are feeling just a little easier than earlier.Since then l have had the opportunity to read your original post, so now have some understanding as to the reasons behind your latest posts, having gone through the initial cancer spread from the original site to other organs myself.
Its a horrid place you occupy and no amount of placatory words can alter that, from experience the change has to come from within yourself as you accept where you are and how you will go about dealing with it going forward.
Once you get there then you will allow yourself to see those small glints of light through your all pervading gloom, the small possibilities that might suggest progress you had previously felt as unavailable.
Initially l could never imagined that all those tiny steps with barely a sight of progress could have mounted up so much as to have led me to the place of safety l enjoy today.
When you able to bring your full focus on your journey ahead it and what you need bring forward from within inside, it is then that you will need all the support you can surround yourself with as you travel forward,and be greedy in getting it
Whilst at the outset their is never a clear sight of a finish line,l have witnessed the inner strength other sufferers possess that allowed them to face their initial fears,turning those fears into a determined resolve to bring their best "them" forward to allow future treatment the best chance of success
That you have a horridly hard journey in front of you is not in doubt, how you choose to travel it will likely be at this moment.The sooner you arrive at the start line with a settled clear vision, the sooner the overbearing stress you currently feel will cease your mind from interfering with your body's need to concentrate on healing
l do not operate with a smartphone but a laptop that l visit from time to time, but l will always be here should you find the need.
