Hi Hope, I hope you’re doing well today despite your concerns with treatment.  ️ I’m really concerned about making this post here, because I don’t want to offend you, but I wanted to ask since your post feels relevant to what I wish to ask?

I’m 16 years old, and I don’t have a cancer diagnosis. But, I have been struggling with anxiety and depression, and am currently considering going to my GP for medication after being advised by my counsellor.

One part of my anxiety is the fear of getting cancer. I want to go to university and am currently studying my A-levels, but I’m so paralysed by the fear of getting cancer young, and having to put off or even lose the chance of getting my education. It’s like a self fulfilling prophecy at this point, because this fear is causing my studies to suffer.

I am just so terrified of getting cancer young. Not to undermine the experience of those who get it older, it’s terrifying at any age! But, I am just so scared of the treatment, its side effects, the risk of losing my life, and having the essential put my life on hold and accept a ‘new normal’. I don’t think I’d be able to handle it and have to put off or risk losing out on my dreams. And, I don’t think I’d mentally be able to recover afterwards even if I did survive.

It sounds ridiculous, but I’m so scared of getting cancer that I’ve started experiencing suicidal thoughts, since I’m starting to think it would be easier to die now than get cancer.

I’m aware this site is not for anxiety, and I in no way want to undermine what you are going through! But, because you talk about envying people who do not have cancer, I want to hear your insight.

Should I let this fear go? Is it a waste of my time? Should I just live my life happily and save the stress for when or if I even get cancer?

Thank you, and if I’ve offended you with this please tell me and I’ll delete this post. I don’t mean to cause any harm, I’m just scared and I want the insight people actually going through treatment. 

Hi Hope, I hope you’re doing well today despite your concerns with treatment.  ️ I’m really concerned about making this post here, because I don’t want to offend you, but I wanted to ask since your post feels relevant to what I wish to ask?

I’m 16 years old, and I don’t have a cancer diagnosis. But, I have been struggling with anxiety and depression, and am currently considering going to my GP for medication after being advised by my counsellor.

One part of my anxiety is the fear of getting cancer. I want to go to university and am currently studying my A-levels, but I’m so paralysed by the fear of getting cancer young, and having to put off or even lose the chance of getting my education. It’s like a self fulfilling prophecy at this point, because this fear is causing my studies to suffer.

I am just so terrified of getting cancer young. Not to undermine the experience of those who get it older, it’s terrifying at any age! But, I am just so scared of the treatment, its side effects, the risk of losing my life, and having the essential put my life on hold and accept a ‘new normal’. I don’t think I’d be able to handle it and have to put off or risk losing out on my dreams. And, I don’t think I’d mentally be able to recover afterwards even if I did survive.

It sounds ridiculous, but I’m so scared of getting cancer that I’ve started experiencing suicidal thoughts, since I’m starting to think it would be easier to die now than get cancer.

I’m aware this site is not for anxiety, and I in no way want to undermine what you are going through! But, because you talk about envying people who do not have cancer, I want to hear your insight.

Should I let this fear go? Is it a waste of my time? Should I just live my life happily and save the stress for when or if I even get cancer?

Thank you, and if I’ve offended you with this please tell me and I’ll delete this post. I don’t mean to cause any harm, I’m just scared and I want the insight people actually going through treatment. 

Sorry that gap at the beginning was meant to be a heart <3