Hi,

I'm waiting to be diagnosed with breast cancer. I have had scares in the past but this is different. I can tell the lump is rapidly getting bigger and spreading upwards. I have booked a private mammogram to try and speed up the waiting process but that is still 3 days away. I haven't slept or eaten in days, feel sick with worry and can't stop shaking. I am only 40 with 3 children under the age of 6 and feel like I'm waiting to receive a death sentence. All I can think about is how their lives are going to be without me and how we need to plan for the end. I feel desperate for help and don't know what to do. I think if  I'd already started treatment I'd feel better but that seems such a long way off at this point. I'm convinced it's going to be stage 4.