Breast cancer

Hi my name is Katie I had to go for a mamagarm last week where in not so many words they told me I have breast cancer  but I have to wait for the biopsy results to come back. I feel like I'm suffocating I have noone to talk to as I see he sadness in there faces and I don't want to be strong any more I want someone to listen to me. I put this brave face on at work when all I want to do is crumble down.

I've started to panic over every lump pain bump I find is it related?.. its destroying me I'm so scared my little girl I won't see grow up. I know I don't know nothing but the fear is unimaginable 

  • Hi Katie 

    I had similar went for recall after screening and told before biopsies were back to expect it to be malignant. The waiting and not 100% knowing is the worst. It's ok to be scared and emotional. We wouldn't be human .it's easy to say try and keep busy and take your mind off the wait but it worked for me on lots of occasions . If I needed to cry or moan or shout I did. Once you know ,you become more settled at least you know what's ahead .There's so many positives in treatment now and so many good news stories from survivors journeys on here. I have my surgery in two weeks and can't wait for it to come around. Currently having a week away in sunshine .chilling! The team of medical staff I've met so far have been amazing and my breast nurse is lovely. If you have a nurse ,ring them if you need any reassurance or even just a chat ,they are so supportive! Try to keep focussed , sending a hug! All will be ok no matter what the results are ,remember that. Xxx

  • Thank you for replying to me I want someone to talk to but I just see he sadness on there faces and I carnt be strong anymore I just feel so trapped. Sending u lots of love for your surgerybxxxxx

  • You have to be a little bit selfish. I know people are sad around us but this is our trauma ,our journey. You have to look after you and not be strong for others. This is a difficult time for you and you be strong all the time. It will make you unwell and mentally and physically you need to be in the best shape you can especially if your going to have surgery and treatment. Explained to your loved ones how your feeling ,they won't want you to be strong for them ,they'll understand you need a hug from them! It's very very scary but you will come through this xxxx

  • Hi Katie,

    I agree with all that Gareece has said.

    Was this your first mammogram? More people are recalled after their first mammogram than any other. This is because there are no previous images to compare the present one with. It is always scary to be told that you possibly have cancer at such an early stage and the way you feel is perfectly normal. We all tend to think that every tiny change in our bodies is related to this - fortunately, this seldom turns out to be the case.

    Have you been told when the biopsy results will be back? Irrespective of the outcome, you will feel better when you know what is happening. I lost my mum to secondary breast cancer and I was terrified when I was diagnosed. I had 2 bouts of breast cancer within a year. First time, I had a lumpectomy, then, less than a year later, I had a double mastectomy. That was all 14 years ago and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life. I'm sure that you will too.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx