I have T1 anal cancer and after a terrible time of anxiety because at first my biopsy was inconclusive and I had to wait for another more thorough biopsy under general anaesthetic. I was hopeful that it would be ok- but it wasn’t. I’m meeting with the oncologist on Thursday and will also find out for sure if it has spread. I am very fit and never been ill and no symptoms of cancer. This has all been a terrible shock and I still have moments when I think it hasn’t really happened. Then it hits me. I had a colonoscopy because a close friend had an emergency operation to save her life because she had a tumour blocking her bowel. I have bowel cancer in my family so though I should go and get tested. That’s when my cancer was spotted. I’m expecting to have chemoradiotherapy but won’t know for sure until Thursday. 
so here I am- feeling very fit and healthy embarking on a treatment that is going to make me feel very unwell. I know that ultimately it will hopefully save my life but I’m actually terrified and just want to run away. Is there anyone out there who can tell me how it was for them.

Thanks