Not sure this is in the right forum area. Back in 2021 I had a orchidectomy to allow a biopsy of my left testicle. This came back as stage 1 seminoma. All further tests in the run up to surgery came back as showing no sign of spread so I was declared clear at the same time of diagnosis. 3 years on and in my latest telephone consultation I was informed that I have a abnormal lymph node in my left lung Following my last CT scan. The phone call wasn't very clear as I was struggling to find clear signal but it sounded like they said it was 1.5cm in size. They requested new tumor markers and have organised for a further CT scan to be done at the end of next month and a preliminary consultation date for 4th December.

Quite frankly I am terrified. I lost my father to lung cancer when I was in my 20s and it's terrifying me knowing that there could be something in the lung. I have a wife and 2 kids but as much as I'm trying to care for them I can't stop feeling like the worst is happening. I don't understand given the all clear on diagnosis how it's possibly spread or whether it's just dumb luck I am having the frequent scans but I just don't know what I should be feeling or what I should be doing. I've informed my manager and have a small network of friends, but I don't know how to stay positive, especially in front of the kids. Does anyone have any advice for coping methods whilst waiting for the results of the next scan and markers?