The good news is, as they say: Good! Nothing has continued growing (stage 4 colorectactal cancer) Bad news is: I believe I am losing some of my mind. I did not mind having the stroke, over ten yrs ago. I have been philosophical. I was a professional pianist, being unable to play was awful, but, after the grief I accepted it.  I just got on with it! and, who needs eight languages? I keep stimulated, take my Creatin and, I'm 'good to go'!  Last week or two, I woke up feeling as though I was begining some kind of flu? Could not easily focus my thoughts.....they were somewhat like shadows, like txt, greyed-out. "I had always thought that" IF I had my brain, I could fight whatever is happening to me. my personailty is intact, I can fight anything! I wonder what is causing this? IS IT the hepatic hypertension? or the usual one? THEY told me that I had the former befire my  big op, and, of course, now...everything has spread to my lungs and liver...Eeeeeegads? What s happening? ough I to force my mind in to reading some advanced philosophy?It was only a few month ago that when telling someone that I was going to have Chemo, then remembered that I was going to start Immuno, Therapy. Which came out as KimonoTherapy. LOL none of which has begun. Yet. Ho HUM! ??? I prey that Each and all of you is as happy as you can be, or, at least 'comfotable' :)  Jon xxx