Hello Michael13367, and welcome to the forum that no-one ever wants to join.  I am in the same situation as you.  I have terminal cancer, and as you say, it has now become something of a waiting game. I no longer eat very much, just enough to keep me going.  I find that I am okay during daylight hours, but it is when I am awake in the middle of the night that my thoughts come rushing in and the reality of my situation really hits home:  I am dying and there's nothing I can do about it.  You have done the right thing by joining this forum because everyone on here is going through the same thing.......either they are battling cancer themselves or they are caring for someone who has cancer.  To be able to connect with people who understand is so important, because I think that we only truly understand a situation when we are going through the same thing ourselves.  I keep myself distracted by reading and listening to music. I don't really know what else to say to you, except that I know exactly how you are feeling. xx

Hi blue girl thankyou for your response, let’s hope today is better than yesterday, have a good day love thanks again x