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When it gets real: worried about starting chemotherapy

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Just finished radiotherapy on my leg after bone mets removed. It's strange that I've had quite a lot of surgery and had radiotherapy before too and not been particularly anxious but then discussing chemo I began to get a sinking feeling that I've not had before despite the optimism of the doc. Finding it hard not to go to darker places. Telling myself it's cos the chemo is unknown. I'm sure it will be ok but my stomach is churning and feeling quite weepy.  Lots of people much worse than me I know but hard to control the feelings. Sorry for the self indulgence just wanted to get it out. 

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    Hi Chris. Oh no it’s not self indulgent at all.

    it the fear of the unknown I think. Don’t be hard on yourself.

    A friend of mine’s son had gone through chemo (aged 11) and that made me think that if he can do it so can I. He’s great.

    I think the word Chemo terrifies us.

    I’ve had a mixture of Gemcitabine and Cisplatin, 2 wks on and 1wk off since beginning of December 2023 for Bile duct, Peritoneum and Liver Cancer.

    Side effects for me are alway varied from loads of energy (probably from steroids) to shattered…..Headaches but not bad.   I think I’ve been lucky.   Oh I did have low temp and had to ring helpline to go in to get checked. All was ok. 
    Try to listen to your body and rest when you should.  I’m terrible for not doing that then end up in bed for a day at a time resting.

    I think I do get subconsciously anxious if I’ve to get up and go to appointments etc and as soon as I start getting ready I get very dithery and it lasts all day but I don’t think that’s the chemo.

    I do wish you well and remember that we are all different and it will effect us differently.

    All the very best to you x

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    Hi Chris. Oh no it’s not self indulgent at all.

    it the fear of the unknown I think. Don’t be hard on yourself.

    A friend of mine’s son had gone through chemo (aged 11) and that made me think that if he can do it so can I. He’s great.

    I think the word Chemo terrifies us.

    I’ve had a mixture of Gemcitabine and Cisplatin, 2 wks on and 1wk off since beginning of December 2023 for Bile duct, Peritoneum and Liver Cancer.

    Side effects for me are alway varied from loads of energy (probably from steroids) to shattered…..Headaches but not bad.   I think I’ve been lucky.   Oh I did have low temp and had to ring helpline to go in to get checked. All was ok. 
    Try to listen to your body and rest when you should.  I’m terrible for not doing that then end up in bed for a day at a time resting.

    I think I do get subconsciously anxious if I’ve to get up and go to appointments etc and as soon as I start getting ready I get very dithery and it lasts all day but I don’t think that’s the chemo.

    I do wish you well and remember that we are all different and it will effect us differently.

    All the very best to you x

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